I'm looking for some ideas on helping me decide what to do. I know its a decision I must make, but I cant do it. I'll try to shorten it as much as poss.
I have worked in a retail store for a year and a half. I came back off maternity leave 2 months ago. My pay is ok, I do 16 hours a week and my place is local and the hours are bloody good considering I have 2 kids.
It has its usual s***ters, being spoken to and treated like crap at times, no gratitude for your work, end up cleaning up after everyone else cos theyre too lazy to help keep your department tidy etc, but I love working with the customers.
I've been thinking of leaving for a few reasons. these are:
I work sundays 10-2. I HATE it now, since my baby was born, and my bf only has sundays off, we dont have a day together at all. There is no negotiation to not work sundays as the boss dumps the sunday shifts on just 3 of us n wont change that (cos no one else will do them).
Sundays, public transport is bad, so I'moften late, and I open up shop so not good.
With a baby I'm up at 5am, and rarely get back to sleep, so I'm always tired on the days i work.
Worked out our tax credits, and basically if me and my partner both work our hours this year, next year our awards will be dropped by 75%, whereas they will be dropped 25% if I stop work.
And just in general I get pissed off more times than none. Everyone leaves my department a bloody mess cos they cant be arsed and I get sick of going round in circles after everyone.
also just the general crap of daily work life.
I feel if I leave I will strongly regret it, the location and hours are perfect, and i also, on a good day, enjoy getting out the house and doing my own thing. I like working, earning my own money and having my own bit of independance. I've always felt useless if I havent worked.
The more months I work, the more my tax credits will be affected next year, so I need to decide asap. I just cannot decide
I have more benefits to not work, but somethings telling me I'd regret it and not to. Everyone just tells me its up to me to decide etc, but clearly I dont know. I'm at a stage where i really hate the thought of going in, but when I'm there im not so bad. Before iI go I think I'll tell my boss im leaving, then when I'm there, I change my mind.
Any ideas?