I miss my best friend so much.. we just recently fell outta touch over a fight that I think was mostly my fault, but I cant help but think what happened, we been best friends for 9 yrs, and I strongly feel that she doesnt wanna bother fixing things, and It hurts me soo much and it kills inside, knowing I get dreams from time to time that we did manage to reconsile and be like how we used too be, always there for eachother, helping eachother out when one of the other needed assistance, or guidance, I remember when she was sick I would run over with a can of soup in -20 degree weather and take care of her, and when things got rough I would be the one she would turn too. I miss her friendship she saved me from killing myself back in highschool she may not know or realize that yet, but one day she will know possibly if she reads it off here, im done fighting with you, I don't want to fight anymore, I miss being able to tell you anything that crossed my mind, when u told me don't bother going to ur baby shower on saturday I litterly had to leave the house for a while just so I would not think about the pain I was going through, If I could turn back the hands of time, I would K believe me, I would I miss you and I hope in time you can forgive me, please don't let go of what we had what we went through, please it makes me cry just typing this out, but u need to know, and im not obsessed I just miss having my best friend by my side, my partner in crime, my sister that god forgot to give me.