I was raised "low" Church, so low it was out of sight. I still remember, after Sunday School - where I was more interested in a borrowed teddy bear, judging by the photo I still have, than in any "talk of the lord" - we would attend the service and listen to the Sermon. I can still picture clearly how we sat up near the rafters, giggling at the goings on down below.
It got serious in my very early twenties when I accepted the Lord as my own Personal Saviour.......as the saying goes. I can truly say that my life has never been the same since. Initially, after a while, what I perceived as bigotry drove me away from the Fundamentalist group that had nurtured me, as well as the teaching of "eternal hellfire", which I eventually saw then, and still see now, as one of the most contemptible products of the triumphant herdmind.
In reaction against some mild threats from some of the brethren upon my leaving them (God will do something to you.....ha ha ha....) I took a look at Atheism, and was much taken with the likes of Sartre and Camus. Yet it was not for me. I have an instinctive sense that life has ultimate meaning which will not shift. Yet I still love Camus, a wonderful humanist - just read his book "The Plague" - and hold dear his words, that he would
like to drive out of this world a god who has come into it with dissatisfaction and a preference for futile sufferings.
Then it was into the Eastern Faiths, exotic at first, yet making more and more sense with the realisation that virtually all of the references to them in Christian literature is pure characterture, based upon ignorance, with pseudo dilemmas such as impersonal or personal, the quaint "western" habit of a constant barrage of "either /or" rather than the more true to life - because at heart paradoxical - "both/and".
I coasted for a time as a "liberal" Christian - very liberal at times
- but then the reading of the book "The Vision of Dhamma" by Nyanaponika Thera inspired me to truly take the Dharma seriously, to begin meditating, and reading and studying the Pali texts. It came at a time when I suffered two years of clinically diagnose depression. Eventually I left the Theravada tradition behind, and moved towards the Mahayana, specifically the Pure Land expression.
For me, the Pure Land way embraces all that is best in Christianity and Buddhism, at least for me. It allows me to open to the heart of the Christian faith, which is the Incarnation and Grace, yet without the baggage that some insist is indispensable. And from my Pure Land base I am able to open to those of other faiths, who I can recognise are on the same journey. Many in the Hindu tradition, the Sufi's of Islam, and of course, Christians such as Thomas Merton whose life and works are a constant inspriration, demonstrating how a deep fidelity to the Mercy of God and the love of Christ can be the foundation for opening to the various faiths of the world, and seeing those who live them as true brothers and sisters.
As he has said.....
The more I am able to affirm others, to say 'yes' to them in myself, by discovering them in myself and myself in them, the more real I am. I am fully real if my own heart says yes to everyone.
I will be a better Catholic, not if I can refute every shade of Protestantism, but if I can affirm the truth in it and still go further.
So, too, with the Muslims, the Hindu's, the Buddhists, etc. This does not mean syncretism, indifferentism, the vapid and careless friendliness that accepts everything by thinking of nothing. There is much that one cannot 'affirm' and 'accept,' but first one must say 'yes' where one really can.
(From "Conjectures of a Guilty Bystander" )