pain again is worse than rain in spain

razor wire inside my leg is revolving cutting shards dep into me and my psyche
its hard to ignore
i deplore it
feel like throwing a hissy fit
evolving the pain cuts right from my spine
far from divine and free from aim the razor wire juts out down my nerves
twisting my spine into unnatural curves
my pain , its mine
all to myself
it takes me and places me on top shelf
untouchable out of reach
so far still to fall
i wish i cld grab it if i were that tall and throw it far far far away
well out of anyone elses way

its so cruel to be forced to fight a duel with an opponent older than time itself
pain stalks us all with wondersone stealth
robbed of wealth and opportunity
pain is eating m
and my chances
giving only time to look back with rotten glances
decaying my body should be at its peak
but here i am strained and weak

i wish i cld have a date for an end
just so i cld plan and know what to spend
but i'm all out of cash
the bank has been bled bare
and after the smash ( in the car)
i have nothing spare
anymore
jarred
marred
empty and spent
i wish i hadn't lent my body to pain for i haven't yet got it back
i feel like my purpose is under attack
when will it go?
how long will it last?
i wish i cld know
will it be like the past?
unrelenting
no reprieve?
if its gone tmrw i wld be so so relieved