@windstorm Said I have missed school for quite a bit. I am very depressed and angry right now. I want to commit suicide because I'm just sick and tired of this situation. I feel like I'm losing my mind because my thoughts are somewhat scattered and I cannot think clearly.
Tell that to your family doctor.
Thats similar to what I did when i had a slump in my life. He didn't judge me, he didn't offer advice, he just gave me 2 percriptions.
1 was for little yellow pills called Zanex, which are a temp. Till the 2nd percription kicks in.
the other was for Paxil, which takes about a month to kick in.
Both of these medications are gods gift to the world. I didn't feel anxous anymore, I didn't feel angry about everything. When I had both of them in full effect, you could crash into my car and I would care but not as much I would previously. I took these meds for about 5 months and eventualy things got better in my life and I stopped.
Think of it like a medical secruity blanket. Everything is just OK and nothing seems like its the end of the world.
I'm not going to try and relate to your problems or give you some lovey dovey everthing will be ok post, because honestly everything might not be ok. But the best advice i can give you is, suicide is a permenate solution to a temparary problem.
People who have tried to end it all by jumping off a bridge say, that the second they jump off that bridge the only real problem in thier lifes is, they just jumped off a bridge.