I just cant motivate myself working from home, I have done more work admittedly working here than any job I have done, but I am bored, and lonely and I really don't want to be here anymore.
The other day I was thinking i need to change my life, and these past few months of living here has made me realise that, I f***ing hate small towns, I hate not having something to get up and go do in an office.. I hate not having money.. and I really cant stand living in someone elses house.. this is the first time since I was 16!!
I need out, and I am worried that if things carry on going the way there going... we may split up and I will end up back in west wales back in square one when I was 16.. only difference then, is that I am too old to join the armed forces. And there is even less jobs there.
But my sanity is slowly going...................
I know exactly where your coming from. I was self employed for many years and keeping motivated was my achilles heal. get a job even if its not ideal, then keep looking. your more likely to get employed that way, apparently.