my fianc? wants to wait the second time around
i mean i do understand
we should be married before we start a family and we should be ... prepared.
we weren't ready when this came along the first time but now that the possibility is a lot more real than just talking about it
i'm ready, and i think that is what's most important.

i respect his feelings and i want him to want this as much as i do but ..
the one that has to go through the physical changes and i am the one who has to experience the "joy" of child birth is me
part of me is aware that he does have to deal with some of this,
he has to deal with me and that isn't always too great for him
i want him to be excited like he was the first time but i think he has that same lingering fear that i do, that this wont work out
we can't be afraid of what could happen