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KaiLua-K0na, Hawaii
Joined: Dec 2006 |
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this is mah j0urnaL where i write mah th0ughts and mah st0ries and aLL i want t0 write d0wn here which i make pubLic which can be read by 0thers.. this is where i put mah bad mo0d th0ughts and mah happy th0ughts and m0ments as weLL..
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I cried because of frustration. My mom is discouraging me so much that I can't stand it anymore. She just told me last night to do my work online, but it's too much for her saying that what she said was true that I won't be graduating this year. It just frustrate me that I'm already working hard just to do everything she wants and she's always there discouraging me. She's always putting me down. I am through with it. I want to leave but I just can't.
Anyways how's everybody today? I am kind of okay now, since I talked to my friends and they comfort me. It's always good to have friends than to be by yourself and feel sorry everytime. That's one thing I've learned that being open is not always bad. It actually relives (dont know if that's the right spelling) me. Thanks everyone for understanding. | |
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| From the way that happened last night I wouldnt want to go home now. But I need to. I just feared that my mom would be doing something stupid to hit us (kids) without even thinking of what is going to happen to her. Will someone help me on what to do? Last night I could get some sleep because my heart was beating fast. I was scared my mom would go in my room and yell at me, since she was yelling earlier that night. She was saying that she was going crazy, none of her kids are perfect enough for her. I was crying all night thinking that she would do something to my baby sister since she was the only one with her. I am depressed, I dont want to feel this way because it might affect my health. Damn! | |
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Its aLmost one week since Florence lived with Cheszka. The young man still goes to the little store that she had and looks at Florence's every move. Cheszka was reading when the young man approached him. "Sis?" asked the young man. "Oh just call me Cheszka" she answered. "How are you related to the little boy?" asked the young man again. "Ah, we're not related, I just saw him walking on the side of the road alone," she answered. "Ah, is that right? Because my little brother is lost for 2 weeks now and we are trying to find him" said the young man. Cheszka was shocked at what she heared. She doesnt know what to do. If she's going to call the little boy or just leave it. She just realized that she loved the little boy as a little bro. She doesnt know if this is really the brother of the young man. If this was it she would be gladly return him to the right owner of the boy. The young man notices that she started getting quiet. "Oh, why all of a sudden you become quiet?" asked the young man. "I know I'm handsome" he continued. "Oh really?" she answered. "You that's why, why do you have to be quiet, it's like you've suddenly seen a ghost" "Umm! nothing really, stop teasing me" "Oh! she doesnt want to tell me, she wants me to think ha" "Ha! Just mind your own business ok?" "Aw, you're so grouchy, it's like you're having your time of the month" "Uy, I dont have it ha, its just you that's visiting me here all the time, that's why I see you here yah?" "Oh! that's what I'm talking about, you have a crush on me noh?" "Kapsz." Suddenly, they became quiet because they weren't noticing that they were getting close to each other, it's like they had a relationship when they're teasing each other.
-= to be continued =- | |
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| Malapit ng maging one week na namamalagi si Florence ke Cheszka. Palagi paring pymypynta ang binata sa tindahan at palagi parin nyang pinagmamasdan ang bata. Hindi naman nya gustong itanong sa binata kung bakit nya tinitignan ang bawat galaw ng bata. Nanatiling nagbabas nalang si Cheszka ng lumapit sa kanya ang binata. Tinanong ng binabata si Cheszka. "Ate?" tanong ng binata. "Ay tawagin mo nalang akong 'Cheszka'" sagot nya. "Kaano-ano mo po ung bata," tanong ulit ng binata. "Ah, hindi kami related, nakita ko lang syang pagala gala nun sa kalsada," sagot nya. "Ah, ganun po ba? Eh kc ung kapatid ko nawawala, mga 2 weeks na eh," sabi ng binata. Nagulat nalang bigla si Cheszka. Hindi nya alam kung ano ang gagawin nya. Kung tatawagin ang bata o hindi. Nagisip-isip muna sya kung ano ang dapat nyang gawin. Napamahal naman din kc sa kanya ang bata at hindi nya alam kung ito nga ang hinahanap ng binata. Kung sakali mang ito nga kelangan nyang ibalik ang bata sa tunay na nagmamay-ari neto. Napansin ng binata ang pananahimik nya. "Oh! Bat natahimik ka dyan?" tanong ng binata. "Alam kong gwapo ako" tuloy pa neto. "Ba! Aba! ang kapal ng lalakeng to," sagot nya. "Ikaw kc eh bat bigla ka nalang natahimik dyan, para kang nakakita ng multo" "Ha! eh wala nga kulit neto ah" "Sus ayaw pa kc sabihin kung ano un, pinagiisip pa talaga ako ah!" "Ha basta! Hmp! Mind your own business!" "Aba ang taray ng ale, parang may dalaw lang ah!" "Uy wala ah, ikaw ata dumadalaw sakin palagi kaya kita nakikita dito palagi." "Aba ayan na nga sinasabi ko eh, crush mo ko noh?" "Kapal ng muks." Natahimik sila bigla dahil d na nila namamalayang nagiging close na sila sa isa't isa. Akala na nga ng ibang nakakita sa kanila na magsyota na daw ba sila? Kc dinaig nila ang magsyotang naglalandian. | |
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One gloomy day, a girl was sitting by her window. She looked outside on the pouring rain. Things came through her mind. All the bad and good things that happened to her. People have been teasing her because she was skinny. They said that she was as thin as a stick. She is also short, about 4.10" and weighed about 85 pounds. She loves to play volleyball, chat on the computer and make websites. Although she has so much problems in life, she tries her best to be happy most of the time and forget about her problems for a while. She also tries her best to solve the problem but she doesnt think about her problems enough to ruin her life. She has gone far enough to go back and ruin her dreams.
One day she came into the point where she needs to take other paths because the one she was on was leading to the wrong dream. She had been going on that road but it didnt go well for her. She tried everything to achieve her and her parents dream but its just not working. She had to think fast to help herself be in the right path again and to make her parents happy.
She loves to chat with her friends. By chatting in the internet she met friends all over the world. From different parts in Philippines, in Europe, in America and other places. She started chatting when she was 14 in Hawaii. She explored things on the internet. How things worked and everything she wanted and was curious about. Her sister and her were very close and chatted together. They had fun talking to people. She actually started chatting on her uncle's computer. But eventually he thought that i was over using his computer, so he decided to change his password. Only her sister knew what the password was and her sister wouldnt let her know what it is. | |
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| anyways mah mom caught meeh this morning still logged on the computer.. she always thinks that i shut the computer without shutting it down.. it drives meeh crazy.. dang.. i can't go through with this anymore.. em getting sick of it u know.. what am i suppose to do to please her?? damn i have been trying to please her for years but still she's "irritated" with meeh.. i noticed that from our old place.. dang i can't go through with it anymore.. she asked meeh what i wanted.. she's all like.. get a job and get out of the house if u dont wanna live with meeh anymore.. damn that is just so.. amps.. anyways.. and she said | |
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I am now currently wanting to learn chinese so that I can communicate with my "bestfriend" who is in Philippines right now. It would be shocking for him anyways to find out if I could actually talk to him in mandarin.. hehe.. anyways yah I am eager to learn the language but I can't find anything that would teach me the language . I now can speak, write and read these languages:
tagalog
ilocano
english
pig latin
[currently learning spanish]
and I want to learn more actually.. I only know how to say "I love you" in different languages. I can say it in tagalog, ilocano, chinese, japanese, korean, english, pig latin, german, spanish, italian and that's it. Well it can be researched but sometimes it's not really what it means you know. So I would like to learn more languages as possible. I am currently about to self learn italian becuz it actually kind of goes with spanish.
-always.christine- | |
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Iway amway aboutway otay ublishpay isthay ayingsay otay ethay
ublicpay. Iway antway itway osay atthay onay oneway ouldway
understandway atwhay Iway asway ayingsay. It'sway othingnay
anywaysway. Itway isway ustjay ullfay ofway onsensenay andway
allway atthay isway omingcay omfray ymay eadhay ightray ownay.
Iway amway elfsay earninglay ightray ownay. Iway amway yingtray
otay earnlay owhay otay itewray, eakspay andway ommunicatecay
inway igpay atinlay. Ichwhay Iway ouldway ikelay otay eachtay
ymay iendsfray osay atthay onay oneway ouldway understandway
usway utbay ourselvesway. Itway ouldway ebay ethay ayway ofway
ommunicatingcay andway ellingtay ecretssay ithoutway anybodyway
owingknay atwhay eway ereway ayingsay. Itway ouldway ebay away
erfectpay ayway orfay emay otay elltay ymay ecretssay. Okayway
Iway avehay otay urntay inway ownay. Avehay away oodgay ayday
andway opehay atthay ou'llyay understandway atwhay Iway ustjay
ostpay omesay ayday. | |
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| weLL this is what cOmes Out Of mah head <br> Christine Iris Gaspar <br> Kathlyn *kambaL* <br> Catlyn <br> what else i dOnt knOw<br> hmmm.. nOh pa kaya <br> that's it <br> em jus bOred <br> aLways.christine | |
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weLL it's christmas eve... it's 10:23P.M right n0w... i jus spent mah time taLkin' t0 mah bhaby and he jus went 0nLine jus n0w haha.. L0Lss... hmm... what can I say he's sweet.. he can be chaLLenging at times but its aLright... hehe.. I can handLe him.. he's aLright.. weLL anyways jus brighten up mah christmas eve.. I th0ught that I w0uLd be aLL sad this time 0f year but I was wr0ng.. weLL I thank g0d that I taLked t0 him t0day.. jus made meeh feeL better... and str0nger hehe.. anyways there n0thing eLse t0 taLk ab0ut...
0h by the way the st0ry that I started c0upLe days ag0 is g0ing t0 be deLayed... I started s0me 0ther st0ry that's why... I didn't have any m0re ideas f0r this st0ry that's why I'm g0ing t0 c0ntinue 0n that bef0re this 0ne...
have a fun, great, exciting christmas y0u never have... have fun this year and the next...
-christine- | |
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