Pretty confused state of mind these days I'm feeling a sense of ennui and can't seem to get motivated even though I have a ton of things to do. Weather doesn't help it's so humid and the air quality sux. I'm so looking forward to autumn,it's my favorite time of year. Trying to give up beer and it's not easy.I use it to quell anxiety which i've had in spades all my life. Tfs helps me get through tough times well because it becomes so obvious that many many people face trials and tribulation and gives me a chance to encourage others which invariably makes me feel more worthwhile. It's like that U2 song One "we get to carry each other" Anyone needs a shoulder I will listen.
I'm pretty much in the same state but my poison is cigarettes. Tough to quit when used as an escape.
Yes! We all have trials and tribulations but at times that doesn't comfort anyone because it can become horrible. I call my time like this "My Black Pit". You are worth a lot because you have had the strength to open up a thread on a basically Atheist forum and where the Believers in Christ keep it on the down low for fear of mockery and debate. That in itself shows me the strength and determination you have been given.
Always remember, we are far from perfect and will have these times over and over again. Deliverance from any addiction is slow but sure. Stay strong and soon you'll be seeing all the stars in the sky instead of only the black of night. Once you find one the others will follow. The stars represent the beauty around you and in your life which you may have forgotten for it's buried underneath the dark. Keep looking and you'll find.