I'm at the local library right now. My house still doesn't have interent service, so I can only get online here. Times like this, I really wish I had a good friend whose house I could go over to, so I could download stuff on his computer. Of course, I also wish I had a close friend I could talk to when I feel like crap, but whatever.

Money problems are abundant. Struggling to pay catch-up with the rent, while also struggling with other bills and, of course, gas so everybody can get to work. Last week, we didn't pay the water bill. We expected them to turn it off on Monday, then we called and found out they did cut-offs on Tuesdays. We then expected it to get cut off on Tuesday, but it didn't. Same for Wednesday, Thursday . . . We got it paid yesterday though, so hopefully no worries there.

Gas is really bad. We have one car, and neither my brother nor I can drive. (Long story made short - never learned.) The week goes like this: Monday night, we leave at 9pm, head in one direction to take me to work, drop me off and then my brother and either my mother or father (whoever's driving) heads in the opposite direction to take my brother to work. Then, five hours later, I get picked up and dropped off at home. Maybe two hours later, my mother takes my father to work, then waits an hour or so and goes to pick up my brother from work. Then we rest until my mother has to go pick up my father at 5pm. We do this five days a week. Except my brother also works on the weekends. (Seven-day work week, awesome! I feel so bad for him.) But it's a little different - one week my dad will only work Thursday, Friday, and Saturday (twelve hour shifts), then the next week he'll also work Wednesday. On the days that he has to be in work by 6am, I'll stay at my job a little later (chilling in the break room) and then get picked up by my mother and father, who will head to his job, let him out (usually after sitting in the car another half hour, to let him get a little nap and put off going into the building, since he'll be getting there two or three hours early), and then head home. I'm spending about five hours at UPS a day, sometimes more than six, but each day, I only get between three and four hours of work. But I can't complain too much. I mean, at least I don't work twelve-hour shifts. Or eight-hour shifts. Or seven days a week. Sometimes, I hate that I work such an easy job. Other times, I wonder if I could even work a full-time job. A few weeks ago, I doubled, working the shift before my own, and then working my own shift. I did it on Monday and Tuesday of that week, and I felt like I was going to be sick. I don't think I could have done it Wednesday without getting sick, either throwing up or passing out or both. It was too hot, and my body just isn't suited to working for that long. I suck, I know. Believe me, I know.

In addition to not having internet at home, we also haven't had cable, and since we don't have a remote for the converter box we have, and thus cannot access the menu to check for channels, we haven't been able to watch anything at all. (When we bought the converter box, we didn't look inside because we didn't need to use it. Years later, when we did need it, we opened the box to find that it had the converter box, another box that turned out to be something for hooking for various things to a single TV, power adapters for each of the things, and nothing else. No remotes or connection cables.) Well, we heard from a friend that a universal remote would work with the converter box, so we bought one, and it did work! Nothing came in though, so had to buy an antenna. But now, we get the local channels, and they all come in pretty clearly. It's only on one TV, but it's good to finally be able to watch something in real time, that isn't a DVD or VHS tape. And we can hear the weather! And see what's going on in the world! It's good to finally be connected again, in some way.

Not a lot going on. Life just moves, like the river Seine, softly but relentlessly. (I've been watching an anime called Rose of Versailles, which takes place in France in the period before the French Revolution. Good series.) Finished Rosemary's Baby recently, by Ira Levin. The book, I mean. About to start the sequel, Son of Rosemary. Way to go, library! Gotta love free books.