@white_swan53 Said
Not surpriseing .
For me , I never ask any questions , I just knew I had to keep drinking until it was gone. I tried to portion it, but a 12 pack and plan on just drinking three a day making it last a week , not even . what made me snap to that was I got into wine when I started working at the country club. Well for us poor winos those boxes are heavent sent. I bought a box and fully expected it to be a several day supply . but damn I kept waking up to an empty box every time . I was an empty nester and my dogs were not sneaking around sippng my box dry . Thats a whole lot of box filled to the top with wine for one person to be consumming each night . Even a drunken winena couldn't get away form those facts .
@white_swan53 Said
The test came when I had made plans for a few friends to come around on my days off and we were going to do a yard burn and and just kick it for a while , so I bought two boxes so I wouuldn't have to go back to town . When I woke up to two empty boxes it hit me like a 2x4 that my problem was I wouldn't consider stopping until it was all gone.
I remember the night - I was careless, in a rut. Said, quite literally, "oh what's one more". The next morning as I was eating my hashbrown potatoes, an upper left molar shifted in the socket.
Scared the crap out of me. Mid 40s is not supposed to equal teeth loss in this country. I stepped away from the bottle. (I liked bourbon - not a wine drinker really.) I embraced dental hygiene and was thankful that I had a perio appointment in a couple weeks with a new dentist office.
I paid $1000 the day of my appointment for a four quadrant deep cleaning. Yeah that sucked. I still stayed not drinking. At my follow up appointment after the massive cleaning, they presented me with a diagnosis and a treatment plan that would have cost $10k. Yes $10k. I got a second opinion.
Another diagnosis and another treatment plan later, it was $4500. I was able to manage that. So we did that and I was good and stayed off the bottle. But then the months crept by and I was recovering and I thought I could drink again if it was only once or twice a week. Wrong. My forward progress was interrupted with even just a little alcohol. So I put the bottle down again.
About half a year went by and I had an itch something fierce for some liquor. Don't know why. So I went ahead and tried again - don't want to be a quitter now do we.
But it was different. I didn't like it. I felt... weird and distinctly out of sync. I didn't even finish the bottle.
If I were a true hippie, I'd probably say my chakras were out of alignment.
It took me about three days to feel right in my own skin again and I've never gone back. I have had the odd craving for a bit of liquor around the holidays - drinking and holidays go hand in hand. But I've avoided it just because it's only a temporary craving and I really did NOT like how I felt last time.
So, now I just don't drink. But I have my teeth and my reports from my perio hygienist remain positive. Knock wood.
But I'll lift my vice in cheers - even if it doesn't go clink in a glass.
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