i've been in and out of tfs for quite some time... but it is only in tfs that i get to let out all my rants and raves in my life... here's another one...
i did an event for filipino-american installation artist by the name of paul pfieffer (he will be doing an art installation exhibit in wembley stadium in england, please watch out for it) in this project i met a guy named andrew. well he was one of my coordinators / production assistant at that time... (it started last august 19) well seemed that we both knew what we wanted at that time and to cut it short we grew close. many people around me started asking if he's like my bf or something close to it. i can't tell them anything cuz i really dunno what we're having at that time. all i knew was we are enjoying each other's company. time came when everybody was insisting that andrew has his thing for me. wel one of my so called big brother in the production wuld always tell me that he wouldn;t go out o his way only to be with me (my computer broke like around 10 in the evening and he was right in frnt of my doorstep firs thing in the morning, he also insists that i apply in the same company he's in, and the list goes on) at night i wonder why i keep on denying not only to the people around me but to myslef as well that nothing is really going on between the two of us. well maybe simply because he's not telling me anything and at the same time i dont wanna assume of whatever things that may relate the things happening between us into something deeper than friendship. i dunno if i was relieved or whatever when after the celebration of my bday (i celebrated it for 3 consecutive days) the last night of the celebratin actually he brought me home and the next day we we're just talking over the phone... and he just asked me if i notice all the attention that was thrown to me by him.. well it all started there... now he's courting me.. (and for the record, he's the first guy that i allowed to court me cuz i never believed in those stuff) well thats it for now.. more to come...
hohum...
October 07, 2006 @ 05:47:25 pm
