Not really sure what I'm doing here, perhaps just looking at the person I once was whilst failing to go to sleep and seeing if anyone else is still about from when I was at sixth form.
Just been to a very dear friends 21st... and me and her have sort of fallen out a bit, we don't fight but we aren;t friends. and I don't know why.
Any way, this party just highlighted how many friends I don't have.... and its not even the case of i have a few close friends but not many others, its just i simply literally dont have any friends.... I have aqquantainces but no one close... so i dont know i guess i am just feeling super isolated.
sorry to throw a little pity party... just needed to get it off my chest.
Just have to get this off my chest
About to fight for my babys dad to not have any access to his son at all... And I think I am doing the right thing but i am worried that I am not being reasonable.
He has threatened me and he has threatened to burn down the house. He rarely sees his son, not because I don't let him, he has better things on most of the time.
He has seen his son 2 times in 8 weeks. and now is demanding that I just leave him at his house for 5 hours. And I won't do it...
I just hope I am doing the right thing.
I have a friend who I think of as a friend, but I am certain that to him i am just an easy lay... In the past everytime we met it has ended up in some sort of sexual situation.
I have a baby now (to someone else) and he keeps expecting me to go out with him to the pubs (which i wouldn't mind going to the pub with him), but he would expect something from me that I cannot give and yeah. I was talking to him today and he was like "You've changed" and I was like yeah I have...
SO i guess my question is and I think I have already answered it myself, Since all he wants is sex and I just want to be friends, should I let him go or just try explaining what I am like?
Just feeling a little down at the moment... scared to act... scared to sleep... scared not to act... don't know who to turn to get some answers to the questions i have... when i have asked questions people haven't been willing to answer them.
So just dont know where to go from here... Oh and this is in regards to my baby... whether I should let him see his dad or not and going to court and I know i have to do it... I can't risk my baby's safety but I am just afraid of what might happen if i do try and take him away from his daddy... and afraid of what might happen if i don't take him away... I don't think I can win no matter what I do...
So that is just a little about where i am at right now. (wish there was an exhausted smilie...)
I am sure I am not the only people that get this but I get so sick of the breeze in people on TFS that send you a PM solely because you look pretty...
I know I could go to the mods if it was a major issue. most of the time you tell them what you think and they leave you alone, but I just get sick of telling people what i think...
some of them turn out to be really nice people in the end, but others you are like just go find a girl that is real! Sorry end rant!
I am sooooo sleepy! However the problem is that it is 1.30am and I cannot sleep. I have to be awake at 6am to drive 3 hours to visit my grandparents... how do i fall asleep.... grr
So my babies dad just posted on facebook that he skipped work to drink by himself... and i really want to rip his head off, because it is a new job and he hasnt had a job in a few months and i don't want him to blow this chance...
but at the same time i am not with him i don't care if he ruins his work situation.
but i want to yell at him and i just don't know what to do, even though i think i know that there is nothing that i can do... i just have to kick back and be disappointed.
Hey All, this is just a quick rant...
I broke up with my boyfriend due to his unpredictability, which is definitely the right thing to do! However I am really struggling not to go back... We have a 2 week old Baby Boy together and I have to see him once a week when he comes to see his son, but when he is here I just really want to have snuggles and hugs with him and have it go back to the way that it was. Even though I know i have done the right thing.
I think maybe its more i just need that from somebody and not just from him. I dont know but Just struggling big time not to go back!
Strange
