i seriously had enough today, the moemnt i came home from a day at school where i waws insulted by teachers students and "friends" told to kill myself mutiple times and failed on a maths test, i through down my bag, pulled out my art book, tried drawing for a few minutes, then peged it at the wall across the room, then started yelling (my music was on and i was home alone) so im yelling, punching my bed, crying. then i relise how sick i am of feeling this way and i just crumple up into a ball on the floor, then i punched the miror in my room and i cracked it, then i was annoyed and pissed off because now not only was i useless my parents are gonna kill me for braking the miror to make things better i stil have things due tommorow, and i showed my art major dfraft today adn the teacher said she didnt like it at all and it was wrong, i never finished my english (i did two of the three tasks) i missed my bus, and had to catch the later one. then i decide "im gonna get up, go on TFS and be happy again" then i go on and hey lookie new PM "yay this will cheer me up" "I think you gay" yeah thanks i love you to! So i went off TFS back to lieing on my bed yelling until my parents came home at which point i screamed out that i wasnt hungrya dn i refused to open my door, now i feel completly alone and really misserable and i just needed a quick vent sorry guys
And im sick of people talking about me behind my back or calling me gay, i am not gay i am not bisecual! if you cant handle some of the things i say thewn ignore me, block me, then you dont have to see my jokes and take them seriously! I know i should stop whining and wasting everyones time but everytime i tell myself i will i get really upset by something adn really need friends. Thank you to everybody on TFS that talks to me, you all make me feel wanted you are some of the best people there are out there, Speciel thanks to missy, You rock girl treebee, for always having good advice, Cobber for being my male TFS role model lol, Cheerupemokid, where would i be with out you. and everyone else on my budies list! you all rock guys.

now im off to bed stil kicking and punching, im just really pissed at how useless i am, and why dont i have the courage to go to someone and tell them how i feel, why cant i just go to the school consiler and tell her that im sick of feeling liek this and i wasnt to run head first into traffic, why cant i tell my "friends" how i feel, they are sposed to be the people i can trust, the people that make me happy. why are they always the ones that make me feel worse, make me feel worthless.

im sorry ill stop now

thanks to everybody