"Pleasure of love lasts but a moment, Pain of love lasts a lifetime."  rashell16
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City of the Dead, Palau
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well...im a mom now. for the last 7 months ive been staying home, being a mom. leaving the house (not even to the store) not more than five times a month. i feel like im on house arrest. something how its not good to take the baby out, but i know thats such bull. anyways, im not writing this for anyone, really just myself so dont comment me with that "well you wanted a baby" s***, because im tired of hearing it when thats not what i ever meant in the first place. i feel so isolate. right now, im home alone with no one here but my great-grandmother and my son. its like that. everyday. i took a year off school last year because---well actually i got kicked out of school last year because when your school is catholic and your country doesnt have pregnant women's rights, you get kicked out of school. such bull s***. so im going to be a junior again. if i go back to school. my dads trying to get money together to send me back t o the states and hes broke enough as it is already. im not his only child. he has a wife and four step children. anyways, my mom doesnt want me to go back. me and her have never gotten along. so i dont know why shes so mad that i ran to my dad instead of her. school starts next thursday, and when i asked my dad about how things were going he ominously said, "I'll talk to you tomorrow" im not going back to school on this women hating island. i have 900 in the bank. i only need another 1000 to get me back. it seems so easy to drop out right now, but i couldnt live like that. it drives me crazy not having a job right now. i pray every night. i always have, but now i have a reason. Lord Help Me. | |
sugarflyguy
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| @rashell16 Said 
well...im a mom now. for the last 7 months ive been staying home, being a mom. leaving the house (not even to the store) not more than five times a month. i feel like im on house arrest. something how its not good to take the baby out, but i know thats such bull. anyways, im not writing this for anyone, really just myself so dont comment me with that "well you wanted a baby" s***, because im tired of hearing it when thats not what i ever meant in the first place. i feel so isolate. right now, im home alone with no one here but my great-grandmother and my son. its like that. everyday. i took a year off school last year because---well actually i got kicked out of school last year because when your school is catholic and your country doesnt have pregnant women's rights, you get kicked out of school. such bull s***. so im going to be a junior again. if i go back to school. my dads trying to get money together to send me back t o the states and hes broke enough as it is already. im not his only child. he has a wife and four step children. anyways, my mom doesnt want me to go back. me and her have never gotten along. so i dont know why shes so mad that i ran to my dad instead of her. school starts next thursday, and when i asked my dad about how things were going he ominously said, "I'll talk to you tomorrow" im not going back to school on this women hating island. i have 900 in the bank. i only need another 1000 to get me back. it seems so easy to drop out right now, but i couldnt live like that. it drives me crazy not having a job right now. i pray every night. i always have, but now i have a reason. Lord Help Me.
That is so un-Christian to condemn you for being pregnant, especially when Christ forgave people for a sin |
essenceofjme
bread ends
| im here if you need me. dont forget that. u've always ALWAYS have been family. i know its no ideal situation, and because we dont email often like we used to, and because im not there to say this to you, don't think life is sumthing to be taken for granted ras. it'll get better if u stick it out, i promise that it will, you may not see it now, but even i can see the light at the end of the tunnel, it looks more like an overpass than anything. promise me that whatever you do you'll get back in school, i know that you dont have to promise me, because ure doing it for you, but i can't imagine it going any other way, for the better..of YOU. Don't forget that Jamie and Jasmine are ALWAYS there for you. NO MATTER WHAT! we're the three sisters, hello!?!? lol. Love you and miss you tons! sorry this had to be here, but hey, theres no downside(other palauans)lol. luvv yoooh sister!!!!  |
smilelove
Ninja Dreamer
| It will get better
...oh and I love your headline quote. It's so true... |
essenceofjme
bread ends
| I can't believe how far along you've come. I dont know if you come here anymore. But you should be proud of youself. For getting to where you are, with your degree and ANOTHER chance at a better life for you and your son. I told you everything would be better, and I couldn't be happier for you. I wonder if you'll ever see this, and I wouldn't post it on fb, even your msgs. we get how that works, love you sister |
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my new life
August 15, 2009 @ 12:23:49 pm
