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, Idaho
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Maybe because I am one. :P I've been diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder and bipolar disorder. All of this came to light after the birth of my son....He's worth it, but.... 
Anyway, since people like to call me a freak, I might as well admit it right? 
Anyway, since the medication I'm on has changed from the one that causes a lot of weight gain, maybe the scale will finally go down for once. | |
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I can't tell delusions from reality right now. Everyone is trying to stop me from working. I need to work, to pay the bills, but nobody wants to let me. They want my family to fail, even my fiance. I'm not crazy. It's really happening. My coworkers want me to lose it, want me to fail. I know it. They're all spies for my psychiatrist. I'm fine, damn it. I'm fine!!
...and looking back at this, it doesn't look like it. Nobody believes me. | |
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I have no idea why I am feeling this suicidal but I don't think there is anything I can really do about it. It is taking all the willpower I resist to just stay at the computer and not do anything stupid. It's been over a month since I started the antidepressant for the postpartum depression...I guess it's not helping.  I feel awful right now and I have no idea why. | |
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*sigh* College is so expensive, and what do I do? I skip a lot of the classes I'm paying for. Or....the scholarships I got paid for, but still....I should've just dropped out this semester with all the problems I've been having. Any advice on pain relief from anyone who has been pregnant? Would be much appreciated.
There is not enough hours in the day, I've decided. | |
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I've been away from this site for a while...Things have been quite busy.
I'm now 30 weeks pregnant, and it's a boy.  We're naming him Eric, although middles names have not been discussed yet. The thought of being a parent scares me to death though.
I am so freaked out though. 10 weeks until D day, and oh boy am I dreading that but looking forward to it at the same time.... | |
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What kind of jerk tries to punch a pregnant person in the stomach? Even as a joke, that's not funny.  And he distracts everyone from their job while barely doing his own. I don't see why they haven't fired him. Although, according to one of the managers, if he lays a hand on me, he'll not only fire him, he'll KILL him. He's a parent, so I think I know why he's a bit protective. I have to work with this jerk again tomorrow, and it makes me nervous. I hope he doesn't threaten to hurt my baby again. Or he's dead. Two of my protective friends are working.
I'm glad the managers are working with me, so I don't have to be around him more than absolutely necessary, but....He makes me nervous. | |
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My former roommate is whining about how I got (barely) a higher grade on the Psychology final. 3 question difference, that is all. So she posted it on facebook about how she's annoyed that I got a higher grade even though she went to all the lectures and studied. I missed a lot of class because the pregnancy has been making life a bit difficult. But I still STUDIED. And before she found out the grade, she said she hoped she did better than me, and if she didn't I owed her dinner. Like bloody hell I do!
Sorry, had to rant, but she is SERIOUSLY pissing me off! | |
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My former roommate broke her contract, but she still expects her $300 deposit. Will she contact the old landlord? No. Will she contact the new landlord? (The place was bought). No. She wants me to do it. When it's not even my money. And if she doesn't get it, she'll make me pay her when I need to be saving up for the baby. I'm almost halfway there. I don't have time for this. I've missed so much school I'm still trying to resurrect my grade for a few classes and that's going to take a lot of work. Plus the baby.
I swear, with all this stress she is putting on me, I'm going to lose the baby. | |
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My former roommate is kind of....irritating me, even though her fears are perfectly justified. Her job might be gotten rid of so she might need to find something else really fast. Fast food isn't good enough because "she can't survive off of it" even though I'm managing just fine...It would be harder without the help my fiance is giving me, but even without that, I'd get by. Barely, but I would. So she's saying she'll fall behind in school. Most jobs don't let you sit on your butt and play on the Internet/do homework all day like hers does. And she'll occasionally complain about her job which drives me crazy. Because mine is so much worse.
And now I feel all b****y, but....augh, she's driving me crazy with her whining. I have to worry about staying in school and keeping my apartment and managing the pregnancy. I don't really have time to council a friend.
Sorry...I needed to get this off my chest I guess. | |
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I've had a headache for about 24 hours and it won't go away. Nothing I've tried has helped. And I don't dare take medication because I'm scared of hurting the baby. As it is, I'm so nauseated I'll probably throw it up anyway. I'm not sure if the nausea comes from how bad the headache is or morning sickness but I've already thrown up once today....and it hurt so bad. (Should it burn, by the way, if you do throw up? Because that seemed kinda....odd.)
I'm at a loss for what to do.  | |
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