April 2008 was my busiest month ever with over 120,000 post! This beats the last busiest month ever, March 2008, that had over 85,000 posts. Additionally, more than 2/3rds of the busiest days ever were in April.
There will soon be in excess of 2.2 million posts and 40,000 accounts.
my life over the last week October 05, 2006 @ 08:59:32 am
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ok i have 10 mins to write about my life..before my dad gets back...my nan died monday. the funeral is friday i hate living with her..i miss her so much...
i have a boyfriend he is lovely..NOW! he use to be a totally jerk! but he changed...hes more himself now..which is good...
i broke down yesterday at school..im not in school today took the day off..all my coursewokrs due in...but i cant think to do it...my minds all over the place..
i feel im losing someone..very important to me ...shes fading from me!!!!! and i guess...no matter what i do i cant fix anything!!!
people want me happy but they moan at me...for being sad...everyone gets sad...why cant i be...never sad...then..people could stop telling me im depressed and ill be happpy...
i just need a friend right now that wont judge me....
...i got frustrated yesterday and...got quiet a few friends mad at me.... ...i feel sick and i have a english exam in about 2 hours...im such a mean horrible person.....i so pale and ....grhhh i give up....i always make people mad at me..... ......oh well theres always tomorrow!!!!!life goes on...i guess
so far this year i have been trying to find myself i know it is something we all do espically in are younger years but for me it is something so much more...i have become a ghost image of a hollow shell my soul is at a stale-mate war agaisnt its self and it leaves me detached from the world around me my world is a blur of images that have no meaning nothing matters when i am like this but there is window short glimpses of pure emotion be they happy or sad or anything between they are intense and overwhelming and for that moment i more connected to that person or thing than anything in the world. It has become the same for my thoughts my mind is blank until those moments to where i am connected with something and then everything makes sense. As of right now i feel nothing and i am thinking nothing my thoughts are presnted to me by the mind that resides within me and i type them out for those to read. The ghost the shawdow the vessel the things i have found myself to be but know that there is a ture self underneath these mirages of what are shown. lost in this battle my soul is fighting. For awhile i thought i found myself but relized it is not me just a diffrent version what could be. The darkness that lies before me in not from sorrow but from uncertanty. i do not know what or who i am or what or who i could or might become i wander now lost within myself an endless search for the answer to the stranger in the mirror my hollow twin in the silvery reflextion shows what i am yet i do not see it so close i am to myslef yet i have become unatable because of this battle my soul wages against its self and here i am the person some of you know but yet i am not i am the vail to my true self. And so i continue to search for who i am and hope to one day to find the answer for this life of hollow detachment is not for me.