"how do you make lemonade if life gives you apples?"  melissarae
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| Last night I went to Jason's house (my boyfriend). We watched a movie and ate dinner. Then afterwards we went to his room. I was really in the mood so I started fooling around with him. He didn't mind at all. I started going down on him and stopped cause I wanted more. And I wanted him to go down. But he said he was too tired. So I said fine and just laid next to him. Laying side by side holding eachother. Soon I fell asleep. I started having the re-occuring nightmare I always have. (the nightmare of when I was raped) I woke up being choked from behind and he was having sex with me. I screamed out "NO!! MICHAEL!!!" (the guy who raped me) Jason stopped having sex and turned me on my back, I was scared and crying, then it happened. He hit me. I started crying more, and he hit me harder and told me to stop crying. And then he started having sex again. I told him I didn't want to have sex, he told me to shut up and let him finish. After wards I ran out of the room and into the bathroom. He came in and was apologizing, and holding me, and telling me hed never do it again. he didn't mean to and he didn't know what had gotten into him. im so scared. | |
mammothmeat
| You need to dump that a** and find someone else!
Behaviour like that shouldn't be tolerated, ever! |
el_diablo
| | What the f***. Why are you dating this guy????? |
ang42
| | oh my god that is really SCARY you really need to leave him as soon as possiable... You do not need to put up with that kind of s*** from nobody!!! that is horriable!! i really and truely feel for you!! if you need to chat with me please do I am here.... |
blondie
| be careful huni, he dont sound like he deserves u. why did he do tht!!  please let us know what happens, dnt sound too good x |
melissarae
| @peanut Said No, he hit you because he gets off on it. Open your eyes. You need to get out of this relationship.
its because it makes him feel like hes in charge. he cares for me. he tells me that all the time. |
melissarae
| | wheres treebee??? i need her!!! she always has the best advice!!! |
ang42
| @melissarae Said its because it makes him feel like hes in charge. he cares for me. he tells me that all the time.
guys can tell us whatever they know we want to hear....but don't believe everything they say!! if he can do something like that he really is not worth your time!!! |
melissarae
| @treebee Said late 
It aint working for you honey, if it was you would have gotten very excited when he slapped you and told you to stop crying. Instead it frightened the life out of you. You arent meant to be in a domineering relationship. I know you are nuts about this guy but its oil and water, he needs someone who shares his particular sexual preference. Either that or he is truly abusive in either case its time to say goodbye im afraid. 
i know i need to but im so afraid. i don't know how to. |
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Last night at Jason's
August 02, 2006 @ 05:21:53 pm
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