It's been nearly 7 years since I first met Jonathan. We originally met on here, and within a couple months started hanging out. I've loved him since I was 18. It's been rough at times but all of it brought us to where we are today. Excuse me while I enjoy being a complete sap Five_Tailed_Fox, you're pretty much required to read this, since it's mostly about you. 7 years, Gods that seems like it was forever ago, in 2005 my life changed forever. In 2004 and the earliest part of 2005 my life had pretty much fallen down around me, I'd lost my dad then be abused by a man I loved. In February of that year I began dating the man who become my second fiance. A few months later we both joined here, at the urging of a friend. Soon, I began to notice someone, whom I'd later know to be Jonathan, he answered posts as if he were writing a book. He loved to discuss a multitude of things, to the point that the man could very nearly argue with a fence post and win!
He and I started talking on here and then became friends face to face. I was attracted to him from day one, but he didn't know that. Some months later we (my fiance, me, and Jonathan), visited the friend that got me to join. We played truth or dare that day,and I was dared to kiss Jonathan whom had just been kissed for the first time that same day, by our friend. So, I kissed him, which I think surprised him, I think he figured I wouldn't do so. That night he ended up hanging out at my house after we got lost trying to get him home. I was polyamorous with my then fiance, and that night it became clear that Jonathan and I weren't just friends anymore. we dated for 2 years almost, kind of on and off due to my insecure fiance (though me and Jonathan was his idea). I must have told him a thousand times or more in those two years that I loved him, he never quite seemed to believe me. He wouldn't often admit to loving me,and once I told him during an argument"That's love, you love me" I probably called him an idiot, but I plead temporary insanity. We split up in early summer of 2007, due to a major argument. We didn't speak for almost 5 years. In February he messaged me on Facebook to apologize, I was floored and I messaged back. Later we ended up playing phone tag, and I made a comment that made him blush. At that point I knew, I was still in love with him. So here we are almost 7 years from when we met and we're closer now than ever. Our relationship is much different now, I still can't believe at times that I'm going to spend the rest of my life with a man I fell in love with almost 7 years ago. Jonathan, we took the long way around, but, I'm so glad that I can call you mine again. I promise, I'll never let you walk away thinking I don't love you again. I'd say what I should have 6 years ago "Stay, I love you and I want you here with me". You're amazing and I am so lucky to have you. |