"Mrs Skins."  jeanettesianrachel
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Medway, United Kingdom
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| i just need some one to listern,my heart is broken but i don't know what to do,for those who don't know my hubby of 6 yrs passed away on 30th sept last yr,when i woke up i wasn't breathing and hadn't been for awhile,my eldest had to get his dad out of bed for me to beginn c.p.r. untill the ambulance got to us,there were 2 ambulance's 2 police car's and a air ambulance,he was air lifted to hospital,i gave a brief discription to c.i.d,then the police rushed me to hospital,to be with michael,our eldest who hadd just turned 19 2 day's before had to deal with the forensic's then phone some family member's,my hubby passed away that evenig,my eldest has to have therapy his a very angry young man at the mo,he has trouble sleeping at night,i save my cryint to bed time,i don't want to do it in front of the boy's in fear they will think they have to stop grieveing in order to look after me,i don't want to go on,i want to be with michael,i can't though,they can't lose both of us so close together,i'm on anti depressent's but i want death soon,i'm not gonna do anything to end my life,i just want it over,most people think i'm coping o.k i'm not,i'm just excisting,i don't know how long just excisting will go on,i feel guilty there are load's of people worse off than me,still i can't stop feeling the way i do,if i had a magic wand i would take my kid's sorrow away,i don't even want to go to them when i hear them crying at night,cos i don't want them to feel they have to stop incase it is hurting me,i'm just mixed up | |
Elite_Dragon
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| | Talking about it always helps, nobody can say how long the grieveing might take but i am sure it will pass. I know michael is still around you and you yourself have felt him. Give it time Jen |
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| | I heard you and wish I could help. I do think that maybe you all need to have a good cry together, and talk about your loss, him, your lives together. It kind of sounds like you all are trying to hide your pain from each other; rather than taking comfort in each other. Do you go as a family to counseling? There are also support groups for grieving loved ones. |
jeanettesianrachel
| | no it is just the eldest one,but his hasn't began yet,he is still waiting in the queue,so hasn't been seen yet x |
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i just need someone to listern
March 01, 2010 @ 08:32:06 am
