For the longest time now, Jeff's mother takes Eva from Thursday-Saturday night because our schedules collide on the weekend. So I'm used to it by now. But, man, I'm sad. I was just looking at pictures and videos on my phone of Eva when we were at the Zoo and she was on the carousel and when she was holding hands with my friends 2 year old son at the mall. She's just so cute. Usually I enjoy this little break I get from her, but I love that little girl. I feel like it's just going to get harder being away from her. Maybe because she's getting older and she knows who I am now. She calls me Mama. She cries like crazy when she knows she's leaving. When we dropped her off Thursday, Jeff was carrying her inside and I was waving bye and she started screaming and crying and yelling "Mama!!!" and she was trying really hard to get out of Jeff's arms. She was reaching out to me and I just looked away because I started crying, I felt so bad. Ugh, I'm starting up again. I'm starting to really miss her now when she's not here. It's not a good feeling.