well for the past week i've been insanely vomiting. and since i couldn't keep anything down, i haven't been eating, so i've been really dizzy, and close to fainting a few times. went to the doctors yesterday, and he gave me an injection in my ass, and gave me tons of pills.

apparently it's just a virus which my immune system is incapable of handling.

the pills are working though. but since i havent really been out the house apart from tuesday(will post about this after lunch. Andy + me in his flat = fun) ive been really down.

and well anyone who remembers will know that i was/am clinically depressed, so right now im in a bit of a state. my mum thinks im developing agoraphobia, coz i never want to leave my room.

a few months ago i told my therapist that my life was going really well and that i didnt think i needed to see her again.but since then iv been burning myself. i stoppd cutting altogether, which believe me was a huge thing.

but my mum saw the burns and phoned my therapist, and now im going to have to tell her that i lied to her and pretended that i was okay. im really quite scared.

my oral fixation is getting worse - i bite ym fingers or nails or my dog tag, or anything i can, whenever i get a chance. i get extremly nervous when people so much as talk to me.

i wish my world - my lie - would come true. it's so much easier to handle.