cant be happening but here it comes. in youth, i thought the year 2000 was sooooo very far away and wondered would i still be alive then. so whats the big 5-0 supposed to really mean? i definitely travel the twists and turns but not the hills, so does that mean i am still climbing, or does that mean i am more apt to choose spontaneous paths ? maybe climbing is too much of a strain or maybe its just another year. what the H is the milestone stuff about? maybe this is the only contemplation i do? maybe.
have to do some life crap scary stuff.... will be gone for a month or two they say... i like who i am and so do other folks but the big strong man in my life doesnt care for me much at all. will he miss me or my boys? my teens are supposed to go to their nana's house.. will they ? or will they do the ultimate defiance in staying in this "home" when their mamma shouldnt be getting beat? Oh well, time will tell, am very scared at my age to change but hey, we can all use a fresh drink of water, yeah!
pissed off and ranting and raving October 07, 2008 @ 03:46:00 am
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thought i should keep it here.. my own rants rather than in the general.. have a kid who is a football pleaser.. comes to homecoming and is not having a date for the dance.. a week ago he had a date, and was waiting her reply while he was on football practice field...he called her via text msg....his phone was gone after he came back.. someone took this kid's phonnnne...i gave local authority 6 hrs b4 i suspended his number, knowing it could be tracked...nothing..nothing since last Wed,.....beware if you think your kids phones are keeping them safe... there is more to this saga, but heaven knows, I am butt, yes butt., tired....
Self Empowerment Is A Good Life September 29, 2008 @ 01:51:40 am
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A recent experience happened I wanted to share especially in this time of Election Year 2008. Cha-cha-cha-changes. Changes. Ah, indeed. In a nutshell, I found myself without a car radio. My impulse was to take it to the dealer and have them
You can count on TFS August 01, 2008 @ 04:07:26 am
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Not sure why it is, or if it's just me, but even though there is lots going on here, I always feel tons better and more focused after being here. Doesnt matter if its only for a few minutes or a few hours, I just feel better. There really are super folks on this site.
i havent been here for a few...and when i checked on my friends, i saw so many things happenin over such a short period....got me to thinking, why is Summer so packed, kinda like on fast forward, like 3 months of Winter folly squeezed into one day of Summer? Is it just me, or is that how it goes?
got to dump ... suicide does not come without warning.... May 07, 2008 @ 05:17:18 am
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i have trusted this site for being safe so far. i have trusted people i have met as being safe as well. it is all a matter of choice. you have been awesome for finding and helping with even getting my kids a great grade..now here is my crux...i am beyond wits end. i have no wits, other than savored moments here when i can understand real folks.. i really would like to enjoy life again but here it is why I believe i cant have
turning fifty
