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Journal Entry #23
October 21, 2009 @ 05:01:56 pm
Wednesday, October 21, 2009: Blindspots

Yo stress is crazy. It really effects you physically. I'm literally starting to develope blind spots in my vision my headaches are getting so bad. No joke. BLIND SPOTS! I'm not playin when I say I need peace in my life.

And yet peace is what I can't have yet.

I understand that you have to fight the hardest for the things you want the most but I have a self pity question to ask: Is fighting your hardest always coupled with ridiculous hardship? I don't get it. It's like the harder I try to do better, the worse things get for me. I mean, yes, I make progress in my goals but you couldn't imagine what I go through on an unrelated note.

And it's getting so bad that it's all starting to effect me seriously physically. I have icepick headaches hourly that cause my vision to fade for 10s of minutes at a time. I've been sick with a fever for like a week and a half now. My appetite is a meer shadow of it's normal beastly self. Sheesh.

At least I'm keeping my attitude intact

What can I do? I can't stop working for my goals because my situation doesn't allow it right now. Any suggestions? I don't wanna die of stress.

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