Ok, so I'm going over to Sweden tomorrow, but I'm starting to wonder if I should or not. The main reason I'm going is because of a Rise Against show on Tuesday, but I'm also going to see my family and possibly an old friend.
Now, the problem with this trip is that my brother and his girlfriend are having a baby (due date was February 23rd, no baby yet though, possibly tonight) and me and my brother have never really had a good relationship.
We haven't spoken in over 10 years, and it does get me down from time to time.
I know I haven't been the perfect sister, but is it really fair of him to hold it against me for the rest of my life, especially when he won't even tell me what I've done? (I have a pretty good idea what it's about, but he won't even tell me if I'm right or wrong about that)
I sent him a message the other week, asking if he wanted me to bring anything over from Finland, and aslo asked if it'll be ok for me to come and visit them when I come over, but to no surprise, he hasn't replied.
So part of me is thinking that it would be better for me to go to Sweden, hang out with my aunt, and just go to the concert on Tuesday, and not see my brother, but... if I do that, my mom's gonna say I'm making a big deal of it and make me feel bad for not going.
At the same time, I really wanna see them, especially the baby, since it'll be my first niece or nephew (they don't know the baby's gender yet). I just don't feel like they'd want me there, so chances are I won't get to see the baby, just because my brother refuses to talk to me. |