What a weird few days I've had. August 18, 2009 @ 06:13:27 pm
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Pretty confused state of mind these days I'm feeling a sense of ennui and can't seem to get motivated even though I have a ton of things to do. Weather doesn't help it's so humid and the air quality sux. I'm so looking forward to autumn,it's my favorite time of year. Trying to give up beer and it's not easy.I use it to quell anxiety which i've had in spades all my life. Tfs helps me get through tough times well because it becomes so obvious that many many people face trials and tribulation and gives me a chance to encourage others which invariably makes me feel more worthwhile. It's like that U2 song One "we get to carry each other" Anyone needs a shoulder I will listen.
Manic Depressions A frustrating Mess! August 15, 2009 @ 06:22:31 am
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O.K. Iv'e rested,and played in a bar tonight. I did well, talked to so many good people,my faith in humanity has been restored.Made friends with another keyboard player/painter. Was hit on by The lead singer of the headline act Asani. I'm so married,but I must admit to being totally flattered by this lovely first nations woman's attention. I told Trish about it and she thought it was funny. She know's me so well. I am a nice guy and as faithful as a puppy. A message to anybody out there who is bummed out today, things change day by day and don't give up. My profound thanks to Mysteria, A beautiful soul if there ever was one, and also Jazz/Readsalot who sent words of encouragement. "Unable are the loved to die,for love is immortality" Emily d***enson. I truly love my tsn friends. Thank You.
I feel horrible today August 13, 2009 @ 05:59:45 pm
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My emotions have been on a roller coaster ride lately.Today is one of those days when I question my value as a human. I'm so down I can't even force myself to eat.Trying to make sense of my life is getting tired. I am so isolated these days,and feel a total lack of focus and motivation.Can depression ever be cured? I've struggled with it all my life and am starting to lose hope.
April 2008 was my busiest month ever with over 120,000 post! This beats the last busiest month ever, March 2008, that had over 85,000 posts. Additionally, more than 2/3rds of the busiest days ever were in April.
There will soon be in excess of 2.2 million posts and 40,000 accounts.
So I'm an open book
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This beats the last busiest month ever, March 2008, that had over 85,000 posts. Additionally, more than 2/3rds of the busiest days ever were in April. 
