"Rantings of an obsessed Gamer." Narnar
At home, United Kingdom
Joined: Dec 2007
I'm not looking for your damn sympathy, I would've told you ages ago, if I wasn't scared. To be frank, I couldn't care less if you died today, infact.. I would be glad. The pain you put me through, I think you need to know what that did to me. Oh please, you might aswell know, afterall, your going to go jail anyways, for sum of 15 years? Maybe more. Believe me. I'm doing everything I can to make you rot in jail.
I don't think you understand what pain is, a simple punch in the stomach? Oh no, it's far worse than that. It's something that kills you inside. One day, I swear my f***ing revenge on you, I'm going to hurt you so much you will cry blood. I'm going to brutally hurt you, I swear. I may not be strong enough right now, but when you get out, I'm gonna sure as hell be the strongest girl you've ever seen. And I'm going to make you cry, maybe plead for mercy. I'm tired of running away from you, I'm tired of waking up crying. I'm going to end this, whatever the cost.
Do you know what it's like to wake up in the middle of the night screaming, sometimes even waking up to find you've clawed yourself so deep, that you're bleeding. Oh, don't worry, that's only pain on the outside.
No this isn't a f***ing love story, it's far worse.
Maybe I can make you f***ing realise what emotional pain is, I mean might aswell try. It's not like you'd understand.
If you'd understand, I'dve told you ages ago, but I haven't, why? Because you are f***ing sicko.
f*** you, you can't even give me one minute, of thinking everythings okay. Each time I try to relax, I cry, I start hurting myself, I start harming myself. Literally.
I was almost f***ing suicidal because of you, I'm not joking, and if you think this is funny. Oh, I'll show you funny. You probably don't even know the words.
Oh but you wouldn't, you know why? You're a f***ing selfish bastard.
That's why, one who only thinks of himself, never another.
Would you even care if something happened to me? No, because you hurt me more then anyone else did in the world. I'm only beginning to heal right now. Maybe when you go behind bars, maybe then I'd heal? No. Let me explain to you.
You made me feel special, you made me feel f***ing happy. Was this all to get back at someone? When I said no, you made me. This made me unstable. Even coming out to people, made me cry.
You thought I'd never tell anyone, did you? Wrong, now the whole world, well at least everyone back here will know what a f***ing sicko you really are.
I've talked to the others, who were victims to you, who felt like they've loved you, 25 years maximum in jail? I hope it's more, I hope it's f***ing life.
The day you die.
Is the day I celebrate.
Let me put it this way; I truly hate you.
|So sorry you have gone through so much,it's good to get it all out there and say what you feel,you have friends you can talk to and help you heal as much as you can. |
I am here if you want a new friend,