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June 24, 2015 @ 11:18:14 am
I would like to explain to you all why I am the way I am. I haven't posted anything in TFS for some time because I was busy working out how to live my life in a fair way and how to treat others better.

Truth be told, I've rarely been a good thinker.

I've created posts in which I show reason, understanding and awareness, but in general I haven't. This is a problem that goes back to England. I was the same as I was in Spain, but worse. I was very impulsive. I was very introverted and turned to books, video games and films more than I should have. I was friendly to people and got to know a few details about them, but I never went very deep. I didn't think much and acted mostly on feeling. I made more than a few people uncomfortable because what I said was either out of place or it went against their beliefs.

In Spain, I got better, but still I put down what I thought without weighing it. I say that now I am getting better because I am more careful. I'm getting to know a girl I like through Whatsapp. We chat every few days and I never have more than one session with her a day.

I learned the errors of my ways in a very painful and very awkward way in Feburary while my mother was in the rehab clinic. I walked 25 km to reach the place, carried more weight in one day than I should have and ended up believing that I could do so much for myself, so I could do so much for others.

All I did was be more active physically and emotionally without reasoning what I could do first. That explains why I had the trouble with the two girls I mentioned. I was being a man of action, not a thinker, a doer, without properly measuring what I was doing. Now I am trying to balance mental and physical activity, because, clearly, too much personal activity can lead to what I became. I'll do anything it takes to make sure I never go back to that state again. No matter what I have to do, I never want to be in the state of mind I was just a few months ago.

It's taken me eight years to reach this point. I hope now I can make a fresh start. I want to and I owe it to the people who know me and the ones who don't.

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Hitting40

New Post! June 24, 2015 @ 06:09:01 pm
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@Conflict Said
I would like to explain to you all why I am the way I am. I haven't posted anything in TFS for some time because I was busy working out how to live my life in a fair way and how to treat others better.

Truth be told, I've rarely been a good thinker.
I've created posts in which I show reason, understanding and awareness, but in general I haven't. This is a problem that goes back to England. I was the same as I was in Spain, but worse. I was very impulsive. I was very introverted and turned to books, video games and films more than I should have. I was friendly to people and got to know a few details about them, but I never went very deep. I didn't think much and acted mostly on feeling. I made more than a few people uncomfortable because what I said was either out of place or it went against their beliefs.

In Spain, I got better, but still I put down what I thought without weighing it. I say that now I am getting better because I am more careful. I'm getting to know a girl I like through Whatsapp. We chat every few days and I never have more than one session with her a day.

I learned the errors of my ways in a very painful and very awkward way in Feburary while my mother was in the rehab clinic. I walked 25 km to reach the place, carried more weight in one day than I should have and ended up believing that I could do so much for myself, so I could do so much for others.

All I did was be more active physically and emotionally without reasoning what I could do first. That explains why I had the trouble with the two girls I mentioned. I was being a man of action, not a thinker, a doer, without properly measuring what I was doing. Now I am trying to balance mental and physical activity, because, clearly, too much personal activity can lead to what I became. I'll do anything it takes to make sure I never go back to that state again. No matter what I have to do, I never want to be in the state of mind I was just a few months ago.

It's taken me eight years to reach this point. I hope now I can make a fresh start. I want to and I owe it to the people who know me and the ones who don't.


Well done you !

It takes a lot to take a step back and have a good hard honest look at ourselves. It's even harder to be completely honest and change the bits we don't like.
It's well worth it though, good luck


yami

New Post! June 24, 2015 @ 06:09:58 pm
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@Hitting40 Said

Well done you !

It takes a lot to take a step back and have a good hard honest look at ourselves. It's even harder to be completely honest and change the bits we don't like.
It's well worth it though, good luck



I am trying to do the same.


Conflict

New Post! July 27, 2015 @ 11:47:06 am
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@Conflict Said
I would like to explain to you all why I am the way I am. I haven't posted anything in TFS for some time because I was busy working out how to live my life in a fair way and how to treat others better.

Truth be told, I've rarely been a good thinker.
I've created posts in which I show reason, understanding and awareness, but in general I haven't. This is a problem that goes back to England. I was the same as I was in Spain, but worse. I was very impulsive. I was very introverted and turned to books, video games and films more than I should have. I was friendly to people and got to know a few details about them, but I never went very deep. I didn't think much and acted mostly on feeling. I made more than a few people uncomfortable because what I said was either out of place or it went against their beliefs.

In Spain, I got better, but still I put down what I thought without weighing it. I say that now I am getting better because I am more careful. I'm getting to know a girl I like through Whatsapp. We chat every few days and I never have more than one session with her a day.

I learned the errors of my ways in a very painful and very awkward way in Feburary while my mother was in the rehab clinic. I walked 25 km to reach the place, carried more weight in one day than I should have and ended up believing that I could do so much for myself, so I could do so much for others.

All I did was be more active physically and emotionally without reasoning what I could do first. That explains why I had the trouble with the two girls I mentioned. I was being a man of action, not a thinker, a doer, without properly measuring what I was doing. Now I am trying to balance mental and physical activity, because, clearly, too much personal activity can lead to what I became. I'll do anything it takes to make sure I never go back to that state again. No matter what I have to do, I never want to be in the state of mind I was just a few months ago.

It's taken me eight years to reach this point. I hope now I can make a fresh start. I want to and I owe it to the people who know me and the ones who don't.


Thanks Hitting40. I have learned the hard way how thinking too inwardly can be a very bad thing to do. I took a long time to figure it out, but now I know for certain what I have done wrong. Now I intend to make amends for it.


Hypnotica

New Post! July 27, 2015 @ 12:52:39 pm
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@Conflict Said
I would like to explain to you all why I am the way I am. I haven't posted anything in TFS for some time because I was busy working out how to live my life in a fair way and how to treat others better.

Truth be told, I've rarely been a good thinker.
I've created posts in which I show reason, understanding and awareness, but in general I haven't. This is a problem that goes back to England. I was the same as I was in Spain, but worse. I was very impulsive. I was very introverted and turned to books, video games and films more than I should have. I was friendly to people and got to know a few details about them, but I never went very deep. I didn't think much and acted mostly on feeling. I made more than a few people uncomfortable because what I said was either out of place or it went against their beliefs.

In Spain, I got better, but still I put down what I thought without weighing it. I say that now I am getting better because I am more careful. I'm getting to know a girl I like through Whatsapp. We chat every few days and I never have more than one session with her a day.

I learned the errors of my ways in a very painful and very awkward way in Feburary while my mother was in the rehab clinic. I walked 25 km to reach the place, carried more weight in one day than I should have and ended up believing that I could do so much for myself, so I could do so much for others.

All I did was be more active physically and emotionally without reasoning what I could do first. That explains why I had the trouble with the two girls I mentioned. I was being a man of action, not a thinker, a doer, without properly measuring what I was doing. Now I am trying to balance mental and physical activity, because, clearly, too much personal activity can lead to what I became. I'll do anything it takes to make sure I never go back to that state again. No matter what I have to do, I never want to be in the state of mind I was just a few months ago.

It's taken me eight years to reach this point. I hope now I can make a fresh start. I want to and I owe it to the people who know me and the ones who don't.


Good luck on your journey. Accepting you have a problem is the hardest part. Im not saying it gets easier but you have done the difficult bit.

Good luck and keep us posted.


Hypnotica

New Post! July 29, 2015 @ 09:19:07 pm
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In the next week or so i am going to be producing a document with some basic breathing exercises, and some mental exercises that help destroy limiting beliefs and help create positive thoughts. Nothibg original just a rehash and rebrand of existing stuff.

But i am willing to give you a copy before i turn it into a kindle ebook and stick it on Amazon.

Let me know if your interested. Its stuff that has helped me a lot and if what you have said in this thread is authentic im willing to share the tools i have.


Willi

New Post! July 30, 2015 @ 12:32:34 am
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today is yesterday with more knowledge.


Conflict

New Post! August 04, 2015 @ 10:56:08 am
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Yes I would be interested, Hypnotica. Please share the document with me. I would like to read it.


Hypnotica

New Post! August 04, 2015 @ 11:01:02 am
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@Conflict Said

Yes I would be interested, Hypnotica. Please share the document with me. I would like to read it.


Yeah I will do. Kind of annoying was going to do most of it this upcoming Monday. But my dad is visiting. So will probably be nearer the end of the month now. Got 2 projects on at the same time and as I currently do a 9 - 5 job, I cant invest the time needed to make these projects a priority.


Conflict

New Post! August 09, 2015 @ 07:39:18 pm
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I understand. Take all the time you need.

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