@matzi1110 Said 
When you are looking back on the last year of your pathetic excuse of a life and realize that this time last year you had the most perfect thing in the world, but because everything was perfect it scared the f*** out of you and so you just jumped of the train and since then your life has done nothing but roll quickly down hill.
My best friend and i tried out the whole lets date, you know why the hell not i mean we have know eachother for 5 years and we know everything about eachother so why not you know.
but it was just so much of everything ive been asking for in a relationship i felt traped and like there was no where to go from there, like we would never grow, we would just always stay in this steady realtionship with no ups and no downs, just us, happy as can be and nothing going wrong because we are exactly what each other had been looking for in a relationship.
try to get her back ,or just stay on the train !!
but now looking back on it, and seeing why now that i dont feel like being in a relationship with anyone and i ust feel lost if any kind of relation starts with some one.
and it just dawned on me its because of her. and now ive mannage to get to the point where she has given up on me and there is no going back. she wont answer my calls or my msgs on the internet nor is anyone able to ask her to answer me, or at lest no one has told me they have even tried...
im not sure how im feeling right now and id just like to know if anyone has gone through this or is going through it it can make sense of this rambling nonsense.
Jan 04, 2009 @ 07:23:28
