@LuckyCharms Said
Some people are better at reading than hearing comprehension. I worked for a man once that was just the opposite. I could write down his messages and he'd stare at them for a minute without fulling taking them in. Verbal though and he was on the spot. I had to read him his messages because he couldn't take them in by reading them himself!
Everyone is different and you should learn to live with your faults. None of us are perfect and we all have our challenges. You should focus on the stuff you can do and either forgive yourself for what you can't do or work to improve those skills.
In the meantime, cut yourself some slack. It's awful hard being so judgmental on yourself. We are our own worst critics but we don't have to make our lives hell because we don't think we compare in a positive light to others.
I bet you a hundred bucks right here and right now that there is at least one person you know that would give their right arm to trade places with you. I'd win that bet too.
Just try to take it easy on yourself. You are the only self you have. You should start caring about it.
One person I know? I doubt it, especially since I don't know a great many people. I can't rule out the possibility, but it seems unlikely.
As far as the things I can do, I really don't know what I am good at. I've heard some say writing, but I doubt that. That's the thing, I don't perceive myself has having any discernable talents.
I've tried not to care, and take it easy on myself, sometimes I feel "okay", but most of the time I'd rather not be conscious.
@annski729 Said
Have you considered the possibility that maybe you are wrong that people are lying to you, or sugarcoating things?
If not, just try to think of it as mere possibility. Then perhaps you can entertain the possibility that you are misinterpreting everything that people do, all the events that go on around you, things that people tell you, etc. to fit your pre-existing notions.
Even if they were lying, I've had others call be ugly(just other dudes, but still), and stupid. Also, I already do think I misinterpret what people say/do, and I end up trying to stop thinking about it because all of the possibilities make me sick.
In the end, I'm left with just me, and I end up vilifying myself.