This is going to be long but i need advice so please read on..
Its now december and i've been friends with my best guy friend for several months now. He is the sweetest most loveliest person i know, and i was luck to have him as my friend. He used to send me messages like 'morning baby' and 'hows my favourite girl?' No-one has ever treated me like this before and i think its gone to my head. It took me ages just to get the courage to go and hug him,but now i live for his hugs.
Anyway, i think i've fallen for him, every single thing i did, he popped into my mind, i changed as a person, i used to sit by my phone praying he'd call or text. (since we became friends we've text every single day). i used to go weak when i saw him. Bless him, hes not the best looking guy but hes beautiful to me,inside and out. he became a part of everything i did.
he started to like this girl, this girl is one of my close friends. they recently started going out and it tears me apart to watch them together, to watch him hold her and now he gazes into her eyes. sometimes i go to the toilet crying. Its gotten so bad i cant even stay with my usual group of friends anymore because i cant cope seeing him with her.
Lately,we havent been talking as much, he ignores me at school, hes off with me. I dont know what ive done to him? he never sends me those messages anymore,he doesnt seem to care. I know his girlfriend wouldn't have told him not to talk to me because me+her are good friends and she knows how close we are/were. I never told him how i felt,but i hinted to him i liked him and he didnt ever pick up on it.
i deleted his texts/numbers so i wont be tempted to text him but ist hurting me not to. I cant count how many times i've cried because im loosing my bestfriend. being friends with him is more important at the minute but im scared im loosing him of that. I would never split him and his girlfriend up. I listen to sad songs that remind me of him, is this sad?
sorry this is so long but i really do need help, what should i do? even better..how can i get over him?xo