@iwannano Said
I have met them that try to 'minister by example' or as you said try to live it.
I probably have been exposed to some of each 'christian' organized religion out there.I had 5 step mothers and each one had a different preacher they felt inclined to impress with their 'good works'
Plus I was very close to my paternal grandparents , grand dad was a catholic and grand ma was a baptist.
And once I was engaged to a wannabe preacher and just narrowly escape being sent to bible collage to be 'trained' as a preacher's wife .
Hmmmmm a surfeit of others beliefs and others ideas rammed down the throat either boldly or subtly, not good, not good at all. None of your own private reflections or hard thinking about the subject at all, and no encouragement to even do it....I am not surprised at your take on the subject. Sorry for that, I am.
I am a believer, actually like that better, and I attend no formal church, visit once in a while, but you see, my belief is a lifestyle that allows me to tithe my time, my money, my whatever to the needs around me, to the hungry, the needy, the sick....that is by choice, not to a building fund, nor a car for the preacher or clothes or for the padded seats etc. etc. I am somewhat of a radical, not able to fit into the institutional mold of organized religion, rather the model of the Christ period. Anyway, my heart really does go out to the negatives that you have had in your life. Think about you and your life and not the other stuff, it does not really relate to you, you are special, there will never be another you on this earth, and that is a gift to each of us....Fill your own mold, it does not mean being a phoney, a fanatic, rather a real human. JMO