I agree 8) with everyone....it sounds like he knows that he's got you wrapped
around his finger and he knows that he can control and play with your
feelings....If you have any dignity and self-respect left (sorry if that sounds
mean) you know you deserve alot better than that. What with the "you can't
see anyone until we get back together" CRAP?!!!?!?!?!?!?
I don't believe
he would say that if he did ever loved you. I think for him you were a
challenege. He liked you and back then he'd do anything to win your heart
and now that he's had....sounds like he's bored of you and wants to move on
to something else but telling you that he "still wants to marry you"....is the
nice way of saying it. Sorry babe but I think the reality is he's just not letting
you see anyone so that when he can't get any anywhere he knows you are
there waiting for him. Also the best way to get away from that is to think
about yourself!!! Ask yourself what YOU want!! You've noticed that your
grades have gone done...do you want to do well? If you do concentrate on
that. Right now....get rid of things that remind you of him...if you go out and
find that there's places that remind you just think "It's over I need to move on
for me!" Think about picturing him having fun out there and you're all
miserable on your own. How does that make you feel? You deserve WAY
BETTER!!!! And you know it...you just pick yourself up, take it day-by-day,
surround yourself with people that support NOT people that would go "I told
you so."....I recommend being with family is best....they tend to see that
something is wrong but wouldn't dare to say anything to make you feel
worse...they stay with you to make you feel better....And LASTLY...think of
yourself right now...you've been thinking about him him and him...for
however long and he's taken advantage of that. Right now you need to take
care of yourself because in the long run we all really need to.
Take care of yourself eh? take some time to relax we're here for you.