@cole Said
Yes, your points are well taken. I am however very familiar with grief. I didn’t go to my first funeral till I was 19 and then had 1 five years in a row.
I also understand that I am grieving however this isn’t the basis for my earlier post about going on my own terms. It is that I’d merely want to go on my own terms when I’m ready. When the kids are raised and living happy, well adjusted lives.
Don’t worry, I’m not suicidal, again too much to live for. My grief is manageable, I know what needs to be done and I’ve taken steps to deal with it in a healthy way. It will run its course and life moves on. I’m very much an “it is what it is” kinda guy and I know that it’s going to be ok.
But in keeping with the thread and apologies for taking it of course I think I too would at a certain time just live in ignorance than seek medical intervention.
My head was in another place too, the day I replied to you the way I did and that's why I read what you had to say the way I did.
I get it now. You are not feeling suicidal but if something (life threatening) might be going on inside you that you weren't certain of, you'd (at least at that point in life) rather not know anything for certain but just let what may happen, simply take it's course?
If that's what you mean I get that. I think I feel that way too. (however, I don't have kids so... I Might. feel differently in such case...but I'll never know that for sure...Plus if I didn't know anything for certain there'd be nothing to feel guilty about. lol