"Rantings of an obsessed Gamer." Narnar
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At home, United Kingdom Joined: Dec 2007 |
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I told him he doesn't have to, family beats friendship. But he's going against anyways. My friends are going against Andy aswell.
His parents, well they threatned me if he goes to jail. Er? Yeah they're his parents but he needs to go to jail. What kind sicko does this to a young teenage girl?
Have to admit though, after he first done it, it doesn't hurt as much anymore. But still I f***ing despise the f***er.
Ohgod, I remember when I actually wanted to f*** him, I thought it'd be fun. With the person I loved. Cared for. Shared laughs with. Held hands with. Kissed. After it happened. Was it worth it? No. Because when it's under force. It's the most horrible feeling ever. You can't fight back because you're scared. You feel like screaming, but you can't hear anything coming out. You feel dizzy, but you can't pass out. You feel like you're bleeding in a million places, but you have no wounds.
The feeling may be different for others, but no words could truly describe how I actually felt.
You know what? I'd have rather lost it with the guy I am with right now. The one who makes me cry tears of joy, the one who makes me smile for real, the one who never lets go.
I want it to be him, but the past can't be undone.
I blame Andy for a number of things that have gone wrong.
And until February the 10th, until he's locked away for good.
That's the day I'll begin to truly heal. | |
moonlighthopes
| I'm so sorry that happened to you!! But it's very good of you to have DONE something about it, most people in that situation are too scared to tell anyone, let alone go to the authorities. Good for you!!! I hope he gets what he deserves. |
Narnar
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I broke down to a friend, who later told my parents, with me together. Was the most horrible thing to say to my mum. |
moonlighthopes
| Still, I'm glad you did, because more people like him need to go to jail. So many of them get away free! You're saving other girls. |
moonlighthopes
| I know it can be scary, I'd say you should have done something, but in your shoes I probably wouldn't have either.. I'd have been too scared and have too much anxiety to face him again. You won't have to worry about him soon |
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