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The Life of Victoria


Public entry Today is good!
October 22, 2016 @ 10:06:59 pm
Today is a really good day. I get to see my sister and my niece. I am listening to music and making a list of names that I like, for future children and/or for character naming, as I like to write and haven't done it in a while. Here's hoping that will change. How is everyone doing today?
Current Music: "Dare You to Move" by Switchfoot
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Public entry Wow
October 21, 2016 @ 04:35:45 am
I am such a negative person. While I explore the boundless world of poetry I should be inspired by the pieces I read, but rather, the more I read, the more I realize what a s***ty poet I am. Here's to f***ing pessimism.
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Public entry My Fourth Semester in College
October 16, 2016 @ 02:17:13 am
Honestly, this has to be my favorite semester of college I have yet to take. I am taking very interesting classes (with the exception of public speaking). Three of my professors have their doctorate in what they teach! I am so fascinated with the literature we are assigned in my World Literature class and I love learning more about human sexuality in my psychology class I'm taking. I am so glad that I got such good professors this go-'round.
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Public entry Daily Writing Prompt 1
October 07, 2016 @ 11:09:39 pm
Tell us about a time when everything seemed to be going wrong — and then, suddenly, you knew it would be alright.

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I guess I'll just mention the most recent incident. I've posted about my former best friend Victoria before (yes, we share a name). After a huge falling out in high school with a group of my other friends and I, she was the only one I really talked to, and we became close from there. However, over the past two and a half years, I have noticed what a flaky, materialistic, and generally unreliable person she is. This girl has literally been my only friend since high school -- I have not hung out with anyone else for that long. Starting in August, when she started attending an extremely liberal art school in the city, she completely stopped wanting to hang out with me. For two months she completely avoided seeing me and hanging out with me. The other day I tried to express how hurtful that was, and she just blew me off like the insensitive person she is. She said, "Think what you want." So naturally (at least for me, because I tend to overreact, but this time I thought it was justified), I decided to do what she was doing to me. So I blocked her on all social media websites and didn't talk to her again. I was incredibly down and out about this, but now I know that in the future, I will choose to hang around people who are kind, sensitive, and generally better for me. I know everything is going to be okay. She can get bent.
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Public entry A New Thing...
October 07, 2016 @ 11:01:05 pm
I'm going to start doing one writing prompt a day from now on so I don't have to think of what to talk about myself. I don't care if anyone reads it, but it's nice if you do. It always feels good to get things off my chest.
Current Music: "Take Me Home" by The Jakes
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Public entry College
August 03, 2016 @ 07:46:51 pm
It's times like these I just wish I was in Wales tending to a sheep farm by myself. Really. College is overwhelming, and I'm not even at a big university yet. My family is going on an awesome beach trip this weekend and I'm stuck in Austin studying until I die for two tests. Then, I get to enjoy a tiny little bit of time before I'm forced to do another semester of this dreaded crap, but this time with four classes, not two. Screw summer semesters, screw college. Booking my flight to Wales now.
Current Music: "While We Sleep" by Insomnium
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Public entry My Heart is Broken
June 02, 2016 @ 08:31:08 pm
Just want to clue everyone in on what's been going on since the last time I visited TFS. I lost my sweet, amazing, incredible companion, Mabel. She was a fifteen-year-old Siamese snowshoe kitty cat with polydactyly and the most lovable personality I've EVER encountered in an animal. I am so thankful to God that my life has been enriched by her presence for nearly my entire life. The worst thing about having pets is that you're going to inevitably lose them first. But the best thing about having pets is being able to have an unconditionally loving bond with another creature of the earth who isn't a human. She was my love and my life, and I am going to move on and be strong for her because I just know I'm going to see her again one day.
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Public entry Frustrated
April 01, 2016 @ 04:41:59 pm
Does anyone want to explain why my profile pic is a steak and crossbones and why there is a pic of Tino on my page saying "Tino was here"? Is that allowed? Anyway, I don't want it there.
Current Music: "If It Means A Lot To You" by A Day to Remember
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Public entry Old Lady
March 15, 2016 @ 12:50:43 am
Sigh... my cat Mabel just threw up again. She is fourteen, almost fifteen years old, and she is vomiting more and more lately... I feel sad. We literally grew up together. The inevitable thing about having pets though is that they are going to die before you. I'm not one of those pet owners who will spend thousands upon thousands of dollars to keep my cat alive just for my own emotional benefit. The minute my sweet girl lets us know she doesn't feel well enough to be here anymore, I will let her go. It just makes me so sad since I pretty much cannot remember life without her. I love her so much.
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Public entry For Carson
March 14, 2016 @ 06:13:20 am
{Brief message before I post the poem, just so it can be better understood: Carson was my boyfriend's best friend since he was very young. On February 13, 2016, he accidentally overdosed and died. I wrote this poem with raw emotion, and I hope that from wherever he is, that he can see it too. Enjoy!}
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Young death is haunting
Because you were so dauntless in life
And you swore you were invincible
That’s how it always goes
Until the night it happens
Young death is sick
And it makes my stomach turn to know
That you were younger than me and
Will never get to be a father
Or get married
We are carried away by waves of grief
And despair
And we’re kicking ourselves asking
“Why wasn’t I there to save him?”
As if it’s somehow our fault
Young death isn’t romantic
It’s an accident
It’s an overdose of chaos and emotion
Because of our devotion to the wrong things
Young death is a hideous reminder
Of our mortality
That we seem to forget about daily
We can’t seem to remember that
We are just flesh and bones
The thought alone that our hearts cannot
Be protected from the pain of life causes
Us to draw away from the people we love
And that’s why we have so many regrets
When they’re not here anymore
Young death sends us into a panic
Because everyone knows that a parent
Shouldn’t ever have to bury their child
All of the wild dreams and aspirations
All of the nights spent talking and laughing
And crying and contemplating
Are ended by the knife that takes a young life
Be it drugs, or addiction, or a broken heart
Any affliction that we can overcome is a
Triumph that makes us stronger
And it is so wrong to take our youth for granted
I guess that all we can do
Is take the memories we have
And be thankful
And tough out all the nights we spend
Sad and miserable
So we can live to be old and happy
Even though this young death
Has taken a life
We still have ours
Life is for living right
And if we can make it through
That one night where everything
Seems impossible
We can do anything
Mortality promises death
But one chooses to live
When he refuses to choose sadness.
Young death may have taken a friend
But it can never take the memories
Until we meet again
This is not the end.
Current Music: "How to Save a Life" by The Fray
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