Kristy. My perception on the world and the people in it. Enter the wonders (and nightmares) of my mind.
Don't go knockin' on my door. June 06, 2012 @ 04:06:57 pm
Time is up
No more cheat n' lie
No more tears to dry
You and I, we're like so "bye-bye"
Finally
I am over you
Totally unblue
And I can hear myself saying
I am better off without you
Stronger than ever and I
I'm tellin' you now
Don't go knockin' on my door
Gotta stay away for sure
You say you miss me like crazy now
But I ain't buyin' that
You better get off my back
Don't go knockin' on my door
I can see
It's no mystery
It's so clear to me
What we had is all history
It's OK
I can sleep at night
It will be alright
I can hear myself saying
I am better off without you
Stronger than ever and I
I'm tellin' you now
Don't go knockin' on my door
and already I'm having a s***ty day.
The computer is f***ed up and I can't figure out how to fix it and now I'm worrying myself sick because I haven't been feeling the baby move like how I think I should.
I really wish everyone would stop talking about the "zombie" invasion.
There are people I really think are seriously and legitimately scared over this and it's f***ing retarded.
Then they're trying to tell me that it's not the "living dead" zombie but "voodoo zombies" where someone is possessing them to do the things their doing.
People need to grow the f*** up and shut the f*** up.
It's not funny anymore, it was old two days ago. And if you really think it's the apocalypse, go ahead and kill yourself "just in case."
FYI: this is pointed towards people at work and on my FB and the people texting me and forwarding me stupid emails.
Gee, Kristy, why isn't your phone working? Hmm, maybe paying the freaking bill would help?!? omg...
Here I am freaking out that I can't send texts or get on the internet on my phone and then I realize it's one day past my billing period.
No worries, just gotta pay it online and they usually turn it back on within 10 mins.
I was really happy that I hadn't gained any weight other that my belly (and boobs, but that's kind of a given..). But then I realized the other night that my legs have chunked up a little.
My feet also have gotten wider and my ankles have disappeared. I have cankles now. And I hate them! I want my ankles back!
I look like I have hoof/flipper things!
God, I hope it all goes back to normal.
I plan on eating well after she's born, breastfeeding and taking her on a walk in the stroller almost everyday.
Hopefully that'll help get my legs back.
I really don't want to gain anything but belly at this point. The closer I climb to that 200 marker on the scale, the more depressed I get.
Finished my birth plan last night... and it's rather long (5 pages). I tried taking some of the fluff out of it to condense it, but it's still long (hey, it used to be 6 pages!).
I mean, I did try seeing if there were somethings I could do without, but taking out a majority of this stuff makes me super uncomfortable.
Oh well. At least I'm organized. I might be a pain in the ass, but at least I got this under control. I just know what I want!
If I look huge, that's because I feel huge probably because I am huge
I'm a little more than halfway through my pregnancy now!
It's really hard to get comfortable (at night and just day-to-day stuff) and I keep hitting my belly on doors and counters because I sometimes forget it's there
Went better than expected, I guess. May 14, 2012 @ 10:03:06 pm
My family sat me down, real gentle and told me they want me to explore my options and think this isn't right for me. My aunt who does work in the medical field was telling me the credentials of the graduates at the school are not great and I may as well get the certification out of a cereal box.
My dad didn't express this to me when he went to the orientation meeting with me last week, but he saw a few red flags that he wasn't too happy about and wants me to look at other schools. He doesn't think I should jump into this much schooling this instant, he'd rather me take my time and find a school that's worth the money.
They all feel like the tuition the school gave me is too steep and considering they're all university grads, I'm being receptive.
So they're going to work with me in finding a new school, they introduced a few programs that could potentially earn me amazing pay at only a few days a week. I'm going to accept their help and do a bit more research. Actually, they all think I should wait until Spring semester in January to get started. They're afraid of the stress level and keeping me healthy at this point.
Well, I guess I was wrong again! May 14, 2012 @ 05:22:57 pm
I'm so annoyed... I try to do something worthwhile and productive to better my life and my family doesn't support me. No. They want to have a meeting with me to I guess tell me I'm taking the "wrong" and "easy" way out and I can't only assume that they're going to tell me to go to a 4 year college because anything else isn't good enough.
Omfg, I'm going to a college for a 13-18 month program in order to get a career so I can have a good paying job with benefits that ISN'T 7-Eleven so I can support myself and Carly without a struggle.
I don't have to stay there forever, but this is going to help me in the mean time.
Don't go knockin' on my door.
