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heavensent1717
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886 points | Grateful...
March 30, 2008 @ 10:03:33 pm | God, people, animals, all living things. I a may not ahve as large of a social group as I used
to, but I have such unique, understanding, and truly wonderful sincere genuine friends,
plus an awesome mom, two delightful pet rats, and most of all a loving God. I have sort of
run down yet charming apartment, best place I could find that I caould afford, but it's
home. A good friend gave me his old laptop and I love it, forums, research, and most of
writing and being able to read the writing and save it when I'm done. I'm delighted also by
all the great friends and people I've met here. Give me some commments back on what
you are thankful for, I'd love to hear it!  1 comments | Reply |
heavensent1717
Points Whore
886 points | No apologies...
March 28, 2008 @ 04:07:38 am | I'm not sorry for showing my weakness, for because of it there is such strength, such
strength some may never know...5 comments | Reply |
heavensent1717
Points Whore
886 points | Really Scared...
March 26, 2008 @ 03:42:21 am | I;m really getting paranoid and losing my grip on reality due to my lack of sleep. I'm scared
lonely, and and heartbroken, I thought this illness was finaly over, medicated properly for
once and over. I'm taking some NyQuil before I get escorted out in a straight jacket. I feel like
the whole world can see right through me, and I terrify them. Lack of response on this site is
not helping my paranoia, it's making it quite worse. Goodnight, and when I regain some
sanity, whenever that will hopefully be, I may be back...  7 comments | Reply |
heavensent1717
Points Whore
886 points | Insomnia...sleep dep...loopy...
March 26, 2008 @ 02:39:22 am | We that says it all. Couldn't sleep last night, so I joined random forums desparete for
anyone's company to keep me sane. I am now Tom's friend. I never thought I'd sink so low to
join MYSpace, but maybe it will be positive just Like TFS, though this was my first real forum,
I'll always remember my roots! Though comparatively, TFS is really my favorite, and I'm
sincere, not just sucking up for points  Love you all& many blessings!----LoriReply |
heavensent1717
Points Whore
886 points | Sorry for being so gloomy...
March 24, 2008 @ 05:13:36 am | | Thanks everyone who showed me care tonight. Much appreciated. Time I retire and rest my poor mixed up head. Good night all and God bless....Lori 2 comments | Reply |
heavensent1717
Points Whore
886 points | Help!
March 24, 2008 @ 04:10:22 am | | I quit my job Friday, I couldn't stand the misery and wanted to rescue my sanity so I quit. My relations w/ friends are in constant flux- how they feel about me& how I feel about them. I'm learning to not be so trusting of people, even friends. I'm an idealist, I thought it was okay to be pretty trusting of friends, but reality hit hard. I'm learning to self protect and not let myself be so vulnerable, it's just hard cause it's not natural for me- I'm self sacrificing and maybe to open and honest for my own good. I'm finally reaching some chemical stability, but my world is caving in on me and I'm trying not to break down or give up. I'm so sick of crying, I'm so sick of feeling lonely. I'm so sick of people hearing what they want to and never understanding me. But this too shall pass, it sucks but growing hurts, and I think that is what God is doing, testing and growing me. I know I can trust Him, and I trust in his love. Humans feel like aliens, I don't know if I'll ever get them. I'm learning most people who"care about me" seem to want me to hide my tears,tell them what they want to hear, not the honest truth. Well sorry all, I am who I am and never hid it, and if you'd rather hear what you want and only see me when it's fun and convienient, then that's just too superficial and ridiculous for me to be a part of. I'm seek of being a people pleaser. Sorry for the rant. I'm tired and hurt, at least if I can't trust people, I can fall into God's arms, which are much more secure. 3 comments | Reply |
heavensent1717
Points Whore
886 points | I Loooothe my job, but grateful I have one...
March 21, 2008 @ 03:26:44 am | I ama "salaes advisor" a.k.a. sample girl. I rant and rave trying to persuade innocent people to
buy lobster raviolis or veggie patties. It used to be fun, but I cook and clean enough at home.
I feel like a ware hous ehouse wife and it's running me ragged. I dread each new work day.
Perhaps it's time to move on, like off my feet and into a cushy office chair...2 comments | Reply |
heavensent1717
Points Whore
886 points | HAPPY, HAPPY<ME!
March 21, 2008 @ 02:55:27 am | It took like ten shrinks and nearly every pill available but I'm feeling the sanest, happiet,
symptom free I've ever been in my life. Praise God, never thought I'd see such internal
stability in my life. Just wanted to share my joy and mark the occassion!  1 comments | Reply |
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This beats the last busiest month ever, March 2008, that had over 85,000 posts. Additionally, more than 2/3rds of the busiest days ever were in April. 
