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Join Date: Jun 2008 |
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SOrry, didnt mean to make that title seem so harshh
but i'm of these haters.
like, leave me the f**k alone
yeah, i mayybe had a cosmo or two earlier tonight but dont judge
haters stop: bad feelings stop: drowning in feelings stops
so theree.
to anyone whos reaading this: stop hatin
love you allll <33
Current Music: freaxxx - brOkencyde
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If he didn't say 'man' I would say they are very similar to me.
I want to scream until no sound comes out and you've learned your lesson
I want to swallow these pills to get to sleep
So I don't have to make a bad impression
I need to start to be myself
Because I'm sick of everybody else
I won't let you bring me down
It's here and now
I'm breaking out
I will learn to love again
But I will stand a broken man
I wanna run, but only far enough to make you miss me
I wanna take back all the s**t that I have done
But I guess you were better off without me
I need to start to be myself
Because I'm sick of everybody else
I won't let you bring me down
It's here and now
I'm breaking out
I will learn to love again
But I will stand a broken man
I took one big step and I looked away
And then I thought of all the things that I wanted to say
I'm always too late
You never got your story straight
I'm always up late
I think I'm everything you hate
I took one big step and I looked away
And then I thought of all the things that I wanted to say
I'm always too late
You never got your story straight
I'm always up late
I think I'm everything you hate
I took one big step and I looked away
And then I thought of all the things that I wanted to say
I'm always too late
You never got your story straight
I'm always up late
I think I'm everything you hate
I won't let you bring me down
It's here and now
I'm breaking out
I will learn to love again
But I will stand a broken man
I won't let you bring me down (I took one big step and I looked away)
It's here and now I'm breaking out (and I thought of all the things that I wanted to say
I'm always too late
You never got your story straight
I'm always up late (I think I'm everything you hate)
I will learn to love again (I took one big step and I looked away)
But i will stand a broken man (And I thought of all the things that I wanted to say)
Current Music: Broken Man - Boys Like Girls (no really?)
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Okies, I think I have discovered the art of journals.
Short, sweet, and to the point.
People hate them loooooongs entries.
Am I right??
Anyhoo... it should be pretty hard to cut off so much of my rambling...
Whatevsies though... I shall try!!
Talk to myself later, then!!
Pip pip.
Current Music: Rise Up - Blessthefall
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Yeah so here I am browsing through them recent journals 'cause I have no life (lol) and I found 'kayt's journal entry about the Q&A note!!
WOOT!!!
I am ADDICTED to these on Facebook, so to make up for my lack of life today, I shall fill it out.
For no apparent (and important) reason.
Here goes:
Have you ever been cheated on?
yeahh
Do you forgive?
It's pretty hard for me to do...
Bath or shower?
Shower!! (dont have time for baths :P)
Have you ever worn the opposite sexes underwear?
Haha yesh
Have you cried today at all?
Not today 
*Record alert*
What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?
Taking a shower, why??
When was the last time you cried?
Yesterday lol
Do you say sexy a lot?
Not really... the better word is SMEXY didn't you know that??
Do you have any gay friends?
Yeppers
is that a good or bad thing?
Uhh yeah!
What is something you currently want?
Happiness (among others)
When did you last throw up?
Oh man like years ago lmfao
Do you like corn?
Nope *blech*
Do you still think about your ex's?
Not in that way!!
A lot of them are still great friends to me
How old were you when you had your first kiss?
What kind of kiss?? :P
Ever made out in a pool?
Lol no... but in the rain yesh *swoons*
Where is your default picture taken?
Umm in cartoon land?? XD
Have you ever gambled in a casino?
Ahahahaha yesh!!
Do you like to have long hair or short hair?
Umm somewhere in the middle (I want to get rid of my long stuff!!)
Do you like ice cream?
Mmmmm yesh =D
What was the last thing you bought?
Gummy bears for breakfast sometime on sunday XD
Where do you keep your money?
In a bank??
(No you cannot know my pin number, bitch) XD
What did you want for Christmas?
YOU
^^
Do you want to cut your hair?
Shorter on top, and a die-job pleeeease
Do you like to eat ice?
Hehe too much :P
The last boy you talked to?
Devon lmfao
Do you have empty bottles of alcohol hidden somewhere?
All under my bed XD
Are you over the age of 25?
I doubt I will ever be :P
Are you typically a jealous person?
Insanely so... :S
Own bright colored underwear?
Who doesn't???
Who is the last person to text you?
My buddy Clancy =D
Are you going to have a good night?
Uhh you want a prediction...???
Do you have strange dreams?
More like nightmares
Do you trust all of your friends?
Uhhh nope lmfao
Have you ever had your heart broken?
Yeahh :S
(But I got over it lol)
Wow I used up 5 minutes of my evening!!
WOOT!!
An accomplishment haha
See ya!
Current Music: Walking Wounded - Bayside
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Aha!!
Even though I realize that I am, in fact, the only person reading my entries (lol), I keep going.
And now for the main event:
My writer's block is gone!!
Praise be to whoever you praise (even if they do happen to be invisible)!!
This morning, I woke up at the ungodly hour of nine am, pulled some paper and a pen out from under my mattress, and wrote three poems and what looks to be chapter three of my story!! (even though I haven't finished chapter two yet, lol)
Ohh it feels good to accomplish something again.
I just wish it would stay this way...
But sadly, the karma gods hate me, and by monday I will be horribly un-creative once more.
Crap.
Anyhoo, I guess I should get back to writing while I can.
Ta ta for now everyone (me, and... umm... me).
Byee
Current Music: Bullets Are Scene - Drop Dead Gorgeous
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Wowsers!!
I am officially on a recruiting streak!
(For a new member with only a few real-life friends, anyway...)
I have totally gotten a grand total of TWO friends to get on this site.
That is how cool I am!
Hahaha
And I'm liking that my friends all automatically add me, so that I don't look like such a loner with no friends... lol
So, I guess the real point of this post would be; I would love some new friends?
Anyone and everyone who is nice and willing to put up with my rambling!!
I would add anyone who adds me first because:
a) I am too shy to go around adding random people (sad isn't it?)
b) I'm THAT desperate
Just please don't make me beg!!
Ta ta for now, my would-be-friends.
Current Music: 10 Years Today - Bullet For My Valentine
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Alright, so I know I said before that I would write a journal on things I loved... but I didn't quite get around to it.
Whoops!!
Anyhoo... here it is:
Chocolate
Foam Buddies
Music!!
My friends
Genuinely nice people (they're so rare, unfortunately)
Internet
Colours
Liquid Eyeliner
Romance
Alchohol
Nightmare-less sleep
Emo boys
Late nights
A shoulder to cry on
Compliments
Hair-dye
Lime green nail polish
Smiley faces
Storms
Dancing in the rain
Hair bows
Stripes and polka-dots
Hello Kitty!!!!!
Comment to add more, if anyone wants to!!
Love you all, even though hardly anyone reads this.
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Alrighty, a list of all the things I CAN'T stand.
Afterwards... like tomorrow, I shall write a list of things that I LOVE.
For no-one's amusement but my own.
And procrastination from walking the cyclops.
Here goes:
Spiders
Tans
Rapists
Fatness
Anything ranging from the common cold to life threatening diseases
Expectations
Life
Mood Swings
Crap jobs
Hangovers
Forgetting what happened BEFORE the hangover
Boiling hot weather
Internet crashes
Pop music
Infections
Depression
Jerks
No money
No hope
Boredom
Ho hum... that's all off the top of my mind.
If anyone can think of anything else; please feel free to add some!!
Alrighty, I'm out.
Pip pip. | |
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I can't take it anymore.
I found someone who makes me happy, but it's so complicated!!
I feel like I just want to curl up in a ball and drift away.
Words can't even begin to describe my feelings, they're so dark and clouded.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I went outside today and just screamed.
Nobody was home.
Then, even after I told everyone I had stopped (and I truly had), I went inside, took a knife, and cut like crazy.
The blood pouring out was like a drug.
Shut the f**k up if that creeps you out, you pussies.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm so f**king mad and depressed and disappointed in life.
I want it to end.
I want to die.
I want to f**king kill myself.
I've never felt so horrible in all of my life even after 'the incident'.
That's huge.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It could possibly be better, if I had any meds, but I'm so f**king scared to tell my parents. I can't do it, I can't, I can't.
Life is s**t.
Death is diamonds.
It's so appealing and it calls to me.
I want to fall into the dark, and never come out.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Fuck why can't I escape It's such a horrible world Nothing is going right I'm all alone They don't care There's no hope Why the f**k doesn't anyone care FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I hate the whole world
Want to die right NOW
Can't keep going anymore
Cry myself to sleep every night
Slit my wrists for love and pain
Watch the blood run down
Can't express my feelings
Search hopelessly for an escape
WHEN THERE IS NO HELP
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Alrighty.
I'm not even sure if that's what you call the sort of things where you come to the realization of something IMPORTANT.
If someone could help us out, it'd be mucho appreciated.
Anyhoo, guess what I have discovered?
You're not guessing!!
Huh fine. I shall tell you, but only because we have a soft side(s)
--Life is so much better just being wild. When you let go of all your inhibitions and just go crazy.
Like singing all the way down the escalator in the mall, or buying a belt with a HUGE spinning buckle just because you can.
Because it doesn't matter!!
No-one knows you, no-one really cares. And chances are; it's even made them laugh. Laughter is wonderful and everyone needs it, so technically you're HELPING people by being fun!!
So, I've decided to just be wild and insane this summer. Really de-stress and enjoy life for once.
Anyone who has a problem can come right on down to my house and tell me.
'Cause tomorrow night, I am officially dancing outside in a bikini in the wee hours of the a.m.
Just because I can.
HA!!
P.S. Try it. I guarantee it'll be fun as f**k. Especially in the rain.
P.P.S Girls, try lining your eyes with a whole whack of liquid black eyeliner and then when you come back in from the rain, it looks insanely cool!!
P.P.P.S Guys can do it too... I personally couldn't care.
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