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Bogey Man
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Tequila_Sunrise
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20403 points | Three months.
Today @ 01:01:18 am | Six months ago I would have told you that theres no point to life. Its boring and full of hurt.
I sit here today and wonder why the hell I thought that? Life is so short and I guess we never really know whats going to happen when we walk out that door.
Three months ago I lost an important person in my life. I feel so disappointed that I never got to tell her that her good nature was such an inspiration to me. Although I had only known her for just over six short years, I felt like she was more than just a neighbour to me, she was a friend, family.
I still recall Christmas Eve two years ago when I spent just over 2 hours trying to put a massive tarp up to cover the paved area in my yard. In 42 degree heat, and the strength of just a 15 year old girl, the odds of getting that tarp up , covering half of my massive back yard, were against me.
Tanya and Michael sat there watching me in their lounge room from across the road, I never noticed until Tanya bourght over some iced water and cookies for me. I didn't take a break in that whole 2 hours because I was so determined to get that tarp up before my parents got home from the pub, I wanted to prove that I could actually do something. I was almost done when I seen Tanya coming across the road, exclaiming that I had to take a break because it was so exhausting just watching my put that tarp up...
I miss the little kind hearted things like that she used to do for me. They used to make my day run alot more smoother and make me feel like there were people there that cared.
Even though I never let her in on things that were going on in my life, I always felt she kinda knew what my house was like, and she would aways offer a reassuring smile when I walked through her door trying to act like everything was ok.
She may not have been technically family, but she felt like it to me. Her and her husband were always the caring side of parents I never seen at home. Not that my parents are horrible, they just don't know how to show emotional care like they do. I could go over to their house feeling like my world was falling apart, and without even saying a word about myself I could walk out of there feeling like there was hope in the world, i just needed to find my place in life out of home.
So today I pay tribute to you Tanya, for everything you ever did for me and my family, for every frown you turned into a smile, and for every heart you warmed with your kind nature.
I miss coming over on the weekends and having bacon and eggs with your family, but I promise that they are going to be ok.
Three months has gone by and theres not a day that goes by when something doesnt remind me of you.
Today it was the song that was played at your funeral. "Have I told you lately that I love you" I can still remember the boys and Mick making their way into the chapel, trying their best to keep it together.
I still remember my Mum holding me when I walked up to your coffin to place a red rose on it, I always knew it had to be something red. i don't think I've ever cried so much in my life as I did when I said my last goodbye.
We meet the people we care about in life for a reason. Each day is so significant and although things get hard sometimes, whenever something reminds me of you, I will just smile, because I am glad that I met you, glad i had the timeI did with you, and now I will always be that little bit stronger when I think of you, because I know your always going to be there to help us all out.
you were always good like that.
Rest in peace Tanya, you will remain in my heart forever <3Reply |
Spoony
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BeTTyBeLL
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4509 points | Fall
October 07, 2008 @ 07:48:45 pm | | Oh how I love the Fall, the leaves are even starting to change a bit, although we've had little to no rain this year and most of the trees are already half dead, but still, the color change on what is left is so nice for a Texas girl to witness. It is raining now though, and cool outside, I even made a pot of coffee, to add to the enjoyment of the change in season...Wow it is really coming down out there as I am typing this, can't say I mind we need it so much. Damn..lost my train of thought.. 11 comments | Reply |
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BeTTyBeLL
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4509 points | 3 guesses
October 07, 2008 @ 06:24:31 pm | I'm going to lunch, so how well do you know me, what will I be doing while at lunch..
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