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16/F/Navadaville, Alabama
Join Date: May 2006 |
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I think I'm back...
Updates:
For those of you that remember me family things have mostly smoothed over.
New boyfriend in my new apartments with a new lifestyle to accompany it.
Umm... I'm doing pretty good. Tired, haven't been sleeping well.
But I love to live and that's what counts?
How's everyone? | |
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I found out that I'm moving far away from here.
Which sucks! I'm going to my (originally planned) high school for like two weeks, then getting transfered.
Gah I'm going to be upset for a long time. | |
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Dinner for a princess  | |
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I dunno right now, I'm just going to rant - no bashing please, its not ment for attention.
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About twoand a half weeks ago my boyfriend and I broke up (he broke up with me) and I was pretty upset. Not only had I lost my boyfriend, but I had also lost a great friend. We'd been going for about a year and some change and it seemed really upsetting to me and I was just... I dunno. Morified?
I seeked comfort from friends and relatives and myself really - but I knew everything was going to be okay.
I got over it in about three days... but I'd seen it coming for at least a month before it happened but yeah...
Shortly after that happened I got into a quarrel with my best friend ever.
And to this day he's been mad at me.
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Its been about one week and a bit that he and I have been fighting and I'm getting really irritated and... scared.
Scared more then anything.
Scared of being abandoned again, scared of being wronged, scared of just losing him.
I've tried hard to get ahold of him but he won't talk to me, I want to fix the problem but I guess he's either not wanting to or wanting me to suffer.
Both of those make me angry.
I'm nothing but an ugly controlling person to him now and I'm but a few strands from losing all trust in friends...
This is the third time! THRID (not encluding boyfriend). I do NOT think that's normal within a year.
I really just want closure to this problem. Is it weird I'm more upset about my friend then losing my boyfriend?
I dunno... I really just need some help...  | |
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I'm ready for it to end now.
I feel like s**t.
I can't stop the tears! My heart feels like its been ripped out, spit on, then rubbed against a cheese grater.
I want to be done, my brain says stop... but I can't! I hate this.
Why can't the good times cover up the bad? Why can't they cover this up?! I don't want to feel this way... I loved the time I had, but I don't want pain.
I've been on an emotional roller coaster for about 11-12 hours? And I feel like I just want to die.
Is this normal? | |
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I'm sweating like a pig... and I'm just sitting inside.
Its like, almost 100 degrees here! I'm used to like, 60 degrees.
SOMEONE TURN DOWN THE SUN! | |
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I went roller blading today! First time in a couple years, realized that my wheels are pieces of.... dog poop!
They don't spin at allllll and it was like a mile to my friends house, almost all the way up hill...
Very fun.
My abs were like, hard as steel! Lol....
How many people have roller bladed before? | |
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And I'm awake... I haven't slept... at all...
Woooow. | |
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I've been on photoshop all day long... and I'm really tired of staring at the computer... yet I can't pull away!
I think I should go get ready for my guest. | |
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