"Tiffany"  tiff2005
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21/F/harker heights, Texas
Join Date: Aug 2007 |
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| well first day back to college went well. Except i know i hate wearing heals and will never do it again. Thankfully i dont have to wear them if me and chris marry cause hes a tad shorter then me and i dont want to make it worse. Anyways i get home and my mom is totally wasted from drinking. My mom is a horrible alcoholic and has been to rehab many times. Not sure when the last time was but probably 20 years ago cause i have not seen it happen. But yea she had back surgery last year. Stayed in the the hospital from october till xmas. Then she came home and she almost made it to one year sober. I have only seen 3 months at the most before her goin to surgery. But yea yesturday she was acting funny and today confirmed my suspicions when she was doing her usual talking about dying and threatning to call the cops cause im trespassing in her room, we live in the same house. Then she said i was trying to kill her. But yea shes the depressive drunk. Just talks about how she is a bad person and stuff. But to me shes great when shes not drunk! I asked her why she did it and she said cause shes lonely. My dad is a trucker so he is gone for a month at a time. But they dont seem very close and never really have. So im thinking shes blaming me for her being lonely and now i just feel horrible. I cant help she doesnt not have friends around her and the family is scattered around. I cant help i have a boyfriend and i go to school and work. I cant help her pain she has in her back that keeps her from going out. I feel horrible though. I have dealt with her drinking all my life and i know it will be the death of her...and its tearing me apart....arg im gonna bury myself in my covers. | |
suicide_blonde
Mega Über-Meister
3992 points | | ahhh...s**t. i'm so sorry you have to deal with that. trying to live with an alcoholic is so draining. i know, i've been there myself. i wish there was something i could say to make you feel better, but i know there isn't. just know that you aren't alone and that there are many people who can relate and empathize with you. |
becky_pepper
Über Master Debater
8824 points | atthe end of the day you are not to blame at all! From the sounds of it, she's brought this all on herself, she has made her bed it's up to her to lie in it.
She should realise that due to this drinking she's pushing loved ones away!
If I were you I'd stick with your partner and not let her come inbetween you both! I do realise she's your mom but if she insists in doing this to you, then I believe it's up to herself really to deal with it, as harsh as that sounds!
You've hada good day, focus on the positive moments that happened today! not on the negative!
I'm sorry I havn't been through something like this, so I can't give decent advice. 
Keep smiling though! |
lili
Monk
30709 points | | I can totally relate! My mom was a sever alcoholic, just like you describe. But she never went more than 1.5 - 2 years between bouts of it. I'm really amazed she's still alive actually. Anyways, yes, she'll try to blame you, it's not your fault, it really isn't. I know how stressful it can be, I really do. |
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