I hate this.. I'm so lonely and its driving me nuts. I have all these mixed feelings.
I really miss my ex.. and I cry every night before I go to bed because I don't have
him by my side. I really do love him. He says he still loves me, but why doesnt he
want to be with me? I guess he just wants to be single. It is hard for us to even see
each other though. The guy I saw the other night blew me away. He's so f**king
hot, dresses so sexy, not to mention just who he is.. and the sex.. omg. You dont
even know. I'm so sprung.. I hate this. Cuz I know he probally doesnt have a crush
like I do, and I'm going to get feelings for him more and more.. and I dont want to
get hurt. He's such an awesome guy and such a good time. I have to see him
again. I might see him sat. My ex wants to see me on friday. I just want to know
why guys just want me for sex.. and no guy just wants to be with me and love me
forever. Treat me like I'm special and not some ass. I mean David.. when im with
him he treats me so well but I know its nothing more then ass. But I just ask
myself.. why doesnt he want to be with me? Whats wrong with me? And why
doesnt my ex want to be with me anymore?? I hate this...