So it's been forever and a day since I've been online, or anywhere near the site, and I've missed you all so much...and it's always something constructive for me to do when I'm bored and have got nothing but time...which I have had since spring break it seems.
Anyway, the point is...since I've been gone my bf has flown back into the states. So he's back home in Cali-forn-i-a....and he has to stay there the rest of this week and next before he can fly out to see his mum in Indiana and then come here to LR.
I'm extremely excited...and I'm a little disappointed too...it's really hard to explain. I've always known that I would have to share him, he's extremely family oriented and has the biggest heart and can't say no to friends (who are good ppl too). So he has this issue with spreading himself thin...very thin especially lately with going off to Iraq and all. But I was expecting him to at least call me and say hello, have a quiet moment with me and let me know he made back on base alright, etc...and didn't call me until almost three days of being back...because he was out "partying". He got drunk and lost all sense of time and responsiblity in the valley...and I can't blame him really. I would want to do that too after being over there, having to be unfeeling and sun washed all the time...hot and grimey. I also encourage him to be social after those situations, he'd rather lock himself up for days and that makes things harder, emotionally, for him...so this is good.
But when is it too much? How much of me am I suspose to give up and be understanding...it's like I don't even exist sometimes in this relationship.
My hardest deal with him is getting him to understand...and I think he does a little...but it's like he forgets and it's too late to talk about it when he's rushed off the phone by friends or because he's on duty...or whatever. I'm mostly upset because I gave him the whole day to hang out and run errands without me calling him, but he called me twice when it was inconvinent for us both, and would tell me "Okay but call me right back when you get home" or "Give me 15 minutes..." and I would and he wouldn't answer. Then he'd call back and apologize and try explain what held him up (i.e shopping with his friend for a new phone, shopping for new clothes and stuff he'd need with his buddy and the buddy's gf) but when I called around 7 (9 for me) I thought he would be still and have a moment while he was at his friend's father's house...but then they all decided to talk to him while he was on the phone and asked them for a moment and then they all went out to a Huka Bar (did spell that right?) and sounded upset when I got upset and said just call whenever...he asked could he call back that night when he got in from the bar...my answer was yes and he never called
I'm not calling him....not again...and I don't want to wait anymore either. I liked him better when he was in Iraq

Am I wrong and just being a typical chick?
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