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nikalaos
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3726 points | Passion and Future Lessons
September 02, 2007 @ 02:41:03 pm | It's been a while since I'm expressed my thoughts on anything but paper. But with this
one, I felt it might be nice to share.
I'm a guy of many passions. I have so many hobbies, that I sometimes find it hard to have
free time, because I don't know which one to endulge in.
I can't say photography is my greatest passion, because I really don't believe I have one. I
think it was the one that just fit. You know, I look at images, and they bring thoughts and
feelings. Emotions that stir like a storm on the sea. Free, open, and without resistence.
Just there to blow, rain and thunder to their hearts content. That's the way my heart is with
photography. There's a certain soul to photography, in it's life, it's grown, evolved and
been redesigned. But a photographer can still look at it's earlier years and appreciate it
with a certain personal pride. For this same reason, is brought an example of why I love
black & white photography so much. It takes away the distracting colours to let you're eyes
search for meaning. It leaves the photo naked and exposed (if you would excuse the
obvious pun), open for opinion, judgement and/or admiration. Leaving the viewer with a
silent connection.
This leaves me with thoughts of what I may be able to do in the future to pa** on what
photography has taught me. If not to others, then maybe to my children (if I ever have
some). I think I'm going to give them a compass. It shall be a symbol of something very
important. Every person has that time in their life, however long, of a need to discover
themselves. I think I'll teach them that for me, a compa** symbolizes that in ones life, they
can be found. They will lose themselves a some point in their life, but it will symbolize a
certain type of hope. That even when one is lost, they can be found again, with some
effort. That may relay to them a personal understanding of drive, and how important it is.
A wisdom that no one can get anything done, fixed or resolved, without first trying with all
they have to do something about it. As my favorite band, Incubus, says in their song
"Drive";
"When I drive myself, my light is found"
I think that's a good lesson... Anyway, thanks for reading my thoughts, especially if you've
read to this point. Let me know yours.
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nikalaos
Mega Über-Meister
3726 points | Sorry guys and gals
September 26, 2006 @ 03:11:04 am | I really can't say sorry enough. I've been so crazy ever since I got back to the island (where
I'm in college studying photography for those who don't know) and I can't even find a
spare minute to return messages to all my crazy wonderful friends on here.
To sum it up, I'm doing great, getting back in the game and learn a TON of new
techniques in the field, and on photoshop.  I'll hopefully send a link to everyone later so
you can check out my progress. I just can't stop saying sorry, I mean, I've hardly even
made a post on the threads in the past 10 days,  . Hopefully, once I get into some type
of routine, I can organize more time for chatting and messages. Either way, I hope you're
all great. A special hello to my BL, my TFS wifey and my good friend skanky_hoe. Have a
good one gals. 
Later Days,
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randomhero
Debater
7257 points | the endless search
May 15, 2006 @ 02:58:52 am | | so far this year i have been trying to find myself i know it is something we all do espically in are younger years but for me it is something so much more...i have become a ghost image of a hollow shell my soul is at a stale-mate war agaisnt its self and it leaves me detached from the world around me my world is a blur of images that have no meaning nothing matters when i am like this but there is window short glimpses of pure emotion be they happy or sad or anything between they are intense and overwhelming and for that moment i more connected to that person or thing than anything in the world. It has become the same for my thoughts my mind is blank until those moments to where i am connected with something and then everything makes sense. As of right now i feel nothing and i am thinking nothing my thoughts are presnted to me by the mind that resides within me and i type them out for those to read. The ghost the shawdow the vessel the things i have found myself to be but know that there is a ture self underneath these mirages of what are shown. lost in this battle my soul is fighting. For awhile i thought i found myself but relized it is not me just a diffrent version what could be. The darkness that lies before me in not from sorrow but from uncertanty. i do not know what or who i am or what or who i could or might become i wander now lost within myself an endless search for the answer to the stranger in the mirror my hollow twin in the silvery reflextion shows what i am yet i do not see it so close i am to myslef yet i have become unatable because of this battle my soul wages against its self and here i am the person some of you know but yet i am not i am the vail to my true self. And so i continue to search for who i am and hope to one day to find the answer for this life of hollow detachment is not for me. 2 comments | Reply |
randomhero
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7257 points | May 14, 2006 @ 05:10:30 pm | | OMG! it was f**king amazing i was on stage like 10 times and i ran and jumped off my friends back i got socked in the lip i was the last one standing in a mosh pit i did a stage i got a hug from the lead singer of Aiden because i lost another shoe lol i went crowd sufring like the entire time oooo and i got hit in the head with a bottle one of the guys from Alexisonfire it was a crazy good time i help launch people into the crowd alot too this one really small girl she had to way like 100 pounds me and my friend picked her up and tossed her like 6 feet into the air lol i still have that buzz you get from a good show and for injuries i got a messed up elbow from being launched into the mosh pit and hiting someones spine my head hurts cause when i ran up my friends back and dove into the crowd i headbutted someone sqaure int the face and some like 250 pound guy landed on my ribs in a mosh pit so that hurts and i got a wicked cut on my other arm i dont know where i came from lol and of course my lip that has a pretty bitchin blood blister lol...and thats not even all of what happend just what i can remember lol 3 comments | Reply |
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