The Random is where I go when I'm not feeling myself. The problem with that, of course, is if I feel anyone else, I run the risk of a sexual harrassment charge! Oh well! So, back to bussiness. It is time to look at the world and say, "Huh?!" You see, my life has had more loops than a really good rollercoaster the past few months. Some of it you all know, most of it you don't. I have had the opportunity to see who, here in Ky. is a real friend, and who is not. The answers were not too surprising. What does surprise me is the general lack of support in this place. I've lived here most of my life, and for the first time, I'm starting to realize just how cold this place truly is. I'm not talking about temperature. In that respect, it has been rather mild. I am, however, talking about the total lack of personal connections that people need to build in order to survive. I've been looking around, and this area is more shut off by it's own arrogance and stupidity than most any other in the world. There are exceptions, of course, but not many. Of the people I've managed to make strong alliances with, would you believe that most of them had been "mis-used" as children. I was floored when I sat down and figured up how many people I've known that can say that they were abused. Then I turn around at school and hear someone (that prior to the statement I had considered somewhat intelligent) say, "You know, child abuse doesn't happen often around here." I was tempted to slap him upside his head and tell him to take a look around. It wouldn't have done any good, though. I look at my "home" with disgust. I would like to burn it all down and pave over it. The only problem is, many of these people would make it out, then they would infect the rest of the world. So, what do I do? Do I make myself useful just helping the survivors cope, or is there more that I can do? I can't just sit around and do nothing. I refuse to turn a blind eye to those that are in pain. I have to help. But I don't know how. When I brought this up to a few "friends" here, all I got were blank looks followed by, "Oh, that's nice." Needless to say, there are a few people that heard a string of obsenities that had never been put together before.

Well, that about covers The Random for now. I think I'll leave you with a quote from "25th Hour."
-"Here's some champagne for my real friends, and some real pain for my sham friends." - Edward Norton.