i dont really know who all is going to read this. and honestly i dont care one way or the other....but here it goes. i dont know what it is but im just so grrr lately. like not towards any one specific person or reason its just like i dont know. im just either A)mad or B)sad or in a blah mood. i love my girlfriend kim to death and i miss her so bad especially right now. i wish i would have stayed at her house...but ok. like i dont know how to explain it. like im just confused on anything and everything. like s**t has gotten so f**ked up and i dont know how tho fix it. i know im not really getting into detail but its hard. i just feel pathetic i guess. useless. like a piece of used tissue. like the dirt under your nail. i dont want to grow up too fast but i cant stand where i'm at....so what now. AAAAAAA i just wanna scream. i dont know where to turn or when to hide or anything. i just wanna run and run as far as i can possibly run til there's nobody around for another 20 miles in any direction. and yet i just cant even pinpoint the exact reason. o well i guess these things just take time.