I feel like I gave my daughter away...

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I feel like I gave my daughter away...
September 19, 2006 @ 05:17:59 pm

Ok so because of my work schedule (4:30pm to 1:30am) it was hard waking up at five in the morning to take my daughter to school. I had to wake up that early cause I had to cross the border cause I leave in Tijuana, Mexico. So my routine was wake up take her to school wait till she got off school drop her off back at home and then cross the border again to go to work. Sometimes she had to stay with me cause there was too much border and I didn’t have time to drop her off and come back. (I leave in Tijuana cause the rents are so expensive in San Diego and I am a single mom so I leave in my moms house and I don’t pay rent only bills). I talked to her grandma (dads mom) and she told me that I can have her stay there during the week and they can take her and I can just pick her up if I can and just take her on my days off. I taught about it hurt so much cause I was feeling like I was giving her away. I feel like a bad mom that can’t even take care of her own daughter. But I know that’s not the case. She has been with her grandma since last week. I feel so bad I see her everyday except when I am running late or I am at work. I talked to my manager and she told me that I could change my availability but she doesn’t guarantee 38 hours for me and I need the hours. With that availability she can only give me like 17 hours. I have been really sad cause my little one is not with me but what can I do she does need to go to school.
Am I a bad mom for doing this?

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sazzie Monk 35814 points	September 19, 2006 @ 05:22:10 pm 0 Kudos
	Don't feel bad hun, it's not an unusual situation that you're in. Youj are doing the best for your daughter helping her stay in school and teaching her that sometimes we have to make sacrifices to achieve our goals. I for one do not feel that you are a bad mum far from it. You are working and not relying on the state so I say good on yer. You will still see her.

rlartundo Meister 1138 points	September 19, 2006 @ 05:25:01 pm 0 Kudos
	But it HURTS....

sazzie Monk 35814 points	September 19, 2006 @ 05:32:49 pm 0 Kudos
	I can understand that, i'd feel the same.

pinksparklystars Ogler 25057 points	September 19, 2006 @ 05:34:14 pm 0 Kudos
	i dont think you are being a bad mom, you are just doing what you have to do to survive. at least she is staying with family and not some friend

mollymalone Über-Minister 15065 points	September 19, 2006 @ 05:39:54 pm 0 Kudos
	You are just feeling guilty. Any mum who has to work feels the same no matter how rich or poor they are. Its called love. You are doing a good job with you daughter and by letting her stay with family is better both for her and you. Dont worry it has happened to us all.

rlartundo Meister 1138 points	September 19, 2006 @ 05:46:14 pm 0 Kudos
	I know is the best for her cause I want her to have an education and its not like i just left her thier. I do go see her and I bring her home on the weekends. But she is my other half that makes me happy and fights with me. I just want to eat cause ever since she left i haven't eatten cause i am not hungry. I hate eating alone...

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