i get in these moods of great saddness. idky! i mean i feel the need for love and affection but yet i want to be left alone. but idky! i know it is not depression. i think about the ones i love and the peoeple i know. i thinbk of all ,my problems. i will get in this state of mind that scares the hell out of my friends b/c i stare off into the distance. its like a distant world of my own. my homelife is perfect so thta is not it. yeah some of my friends bore me but i could careless really. i jus dont know and i am in that mood of craving love in all the avaiable places. idky! im sutre i am fine and this probobly makes no sense but i had to gt it out there and off my mind!

xoxo