hi again, i finally got off incapacity benefit, only to find out i couldn't apply for jobseekers 'cos the incapacity people made an error! anyway it eventually got sorted and now i am looking for another job! so, to that end i am on new deal, this project has its good points but for the most part it is a very boring and tedious day, each day, all five ov them!!!!!!!!!!! i need beer! i would love a job at the royal armouries in leeds, as i am into military history and weaponary it would be the ideal job for me, plus i could meet people and have a good laugh with them to boot. on a more serious note my grandad is very ill! he has fallen over and severly injured his back when he fell through the coffee table. i am very concerned as i think he is starting to give up on life. he is 86, he has smoked all my life, before that he had 2 heart attacks, before that he worked down the pits for 27 years, and now he just wants to give up!!!!! i don't understand him. he has always been a very strong willed person with a very strong scottish temper (as do i), so i can't accept the fact he is getting old, he has alwas been a very strong figure of support and morality for me and i don't know what i'm going to do without him!